Boredom and brains and Hep and heck
- LOL Yeah... I have a "hepper job" I sit on my bottom all day doing data entry. When I originally got sick with hep back in 87/88, I was going to school full time and working full time and had two pre teens and got married and..... then whamo... I was stopped dead in my tracks, on leave from work for 3 months, I had no brain power left to finish my Calculus class much less finish my degree in Statistics.
Sometimes I get so frustrated. On the good days, I want to have a better job. On the bad days, I just want to crawl under the covers. I hate not having the energy to even think. Some days I don't have the energy to even care. I don't think this is quite "depression", I'm not sure I can explain it. I know when I feel better, I will care, think, do. But it sure seems a waste of time on the days I can't.
I've been talking to heppers a lot lately in hep chat rooms and I've been talking to them about life changes, planning, pacing your life on hep and on treatment.
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- Dear AlleyPat,
Those are textbook symptoms of depression. I know because I've been there
three times and my family has a defective gene. We have all been on
tricyclic antidepressants at one time or another and the psychiatrists all
tell us it's genetic.
At 08:04 PM 09/02/2000 , you wrote:
>Sometimes I get so frustrated. On the good days, I want to have a better
>job. On the bad days, I just want to crawl under the covers. I hate not
>having the energy to even think. Some days I don't have the energy to even
>care. I don't think this is quite "depression", I'm not sure I can explain
>it. I know when I feel better, I will care, think, do. But it sure seems a
>waste of time on the days I can't.
- In a message dated 9/4/00 12:13:08 PM Eastern Daylight Time,
<< 14th week and movin on :)
Sept. 23rd - and I'll have completed my 6th month. (Don't ask me # of
weeks...it's a blur at this point...plus, I don't feel like counting :)
Doing well. Antidepressants --- emphatically YES!!! I do feel a greater
sense of malaise setting in at this stage. I'm definitely crankier now, too.
Oh well...this will end. As will the thinning hair...boo! It started last
I gotta go till April, so I'll be looking at some fabulous hats soon! Also,
I'm cutting this mess down...gonna go short-ish.
Hope all is well with everyone in GWH world,
- Jane.. sounds like you are doing great! and great attitude too! That helps a
lot.. how we enter into this thing. Yeah I'm wishing I wasn't working now..
I tire much more easily and wanna nap off and on all day.. but so far so
good. I been looking at hairdos on the web and hubby keeps wrinkling his
nose at em hahahha