I was recently contacted by an old friend of mine in the Door christian fellowship.Pastor Nur Rashid sent out of the Austin church of recently deceased pastor Barry Parker.I hadnt spoken to him in about four years.He spent 3 and a half years pioneering a work in Costa Rica and recently returned.He had sent a few text messages to me that I finnaly responded to.He wanted to meet me to talk.
He is the first person who has contacted me and wanted to meet and talk since I escaped the fellowship in 2010.Well we met at a starbucks yesterday and we went through all the reasons I left.Thanks to this web site my reasons came across with more clarity than I could have said alone without being able to vent first here.We met for about 4 hours lol.I had alot to discuss and his first reaction was to defend the doctrines that we discussed, when I made all logical points from tithing, to guilt trips, cultish behaviors, hipocacy, no fruitfulness or growth of real signifacance,etc...
We started getting down to the word.His natural reaction was to defend the fellowship, untill I told him that I didn't want to meet to arguee why.I just simply stated these were my greivences.Also that I'm not holding him personally responsible in any way for why the fellowship is that way.How can I when I know he had a personal experience with Jesus Christ and a relationship with him.We all were taught the fellowship way mostly at a young and niaeve state in our lives.He did agree 100 per cent with all my points and even told me as much as I know he knows more being in the position of a pastor first then a missionary of a succesful work in Costa Rica.Which he gave his all to help see people set free at the cost of many battles and tears.
Someone overheard us and asked to hear my testimony.Turns out it was a succesful buisnessman meeting there with a producer about making a videos on laguage protocals for missionarys.That's just a side note to all that happened at our meeting.We all gave our testimonys and traded info as they were interested in videoing us about our testimony and getting Nur Rashid to help with the language protocal videos.Funny how God brings stuff like that together.They were very shocked because that morning they decided to make they videos for missionarys instead of basic protocals for someone visiting a foriegn country.
Well then we talked some more about it all and Nur told me he is seeing changes from that kinda stuff in the fellowship since I've been gone.We agreed that he was not on trial and if I ever could have vented my grievences to someone who could have made a difference of it in the fellowship it would have been my former pastor Barry Parker, but he is no longer with us.
We got past it all then it was brotherly love, he asked me to pray grabed my hands and prayered loudly for me with our heads bowed in the middle of Starbucks out of nowhere.Its been a long time since I did something like that but I surprisingly did not feel uncomfortable about it and when he finished he was loosening his grip on my hands when I did not let go griped his hands and prayed for him in the same manner.
Well I was surprised at all of this because out of all the years since I left he is the first to have the courage to honestly hear me out and want to meet with me.Also being very good listener as well.I never got the feeling he put the fellowship over the truth.There is alot wrong with the fellowship but there is still people in there with a purpose that only God knows.
All of us who are gone need to realize that we live and learn.Also we are twice the men and women we were for making the stands we made against the fellowship.Some don't realize that and it frustrates me to hear only complaints about how the fellowship ruined our lives and that people can't grow past that and forgive.Some of the evil elements of the fellowships darkside would like nothing better than to know that some of us pine away in bitterness and unforgivness.We have a duty to get our lives back materialy succesfull, mentaly and spiritually.