*** Hey Truthdecider! Can I call you Frank?
;-) Just kidding....
**** Basically what I am saying is, we create our own
reality. "If I put it in my mind it will happen" ! Who knows
where *thought* comes from? In this case a past life, a future
life, or crap that we take into our brains through various means..... T.V.
, books, movies, other people's drama etc. My question
is, what is living beneath denial? Is it easier to pass current
problems off on a past life? I believe even Harold later on in
years wanted members to stop putting so much attention on past lives, and deal
with this one!
> > Well, since I was sitting next to
him, when he
> announced this revelation, I couldn't get away from
> LOL and so the drama continues with all these
claiming to have had the most difficult or sick past
lives. Seems more
interesting don't you think, than saying
gee I was just some poor goat herder with
16 kids to feed.
**** And so the drama continues.... How are *we* effecting
reality? We can be addicted to alcohol, drugs, and also to emotions
and past lives. What is your reality? Do you keep going
back to the same ol rules? When I finally started seeing that
Harold was creating my reality, and that he doesn't have a trade mark on
God, (or Twitch who started eckankrap). I started digging
deeper, asked more questions. Harold or someone / something runs our
lives? It sure makes living life easier to have someone else control
it for us.... I no longer excepted that the mahanta was / is
taking care of the whole universe, let alone me!
>Makes him look silly actually, cuz why on Earth would the
mahanta of the universe pick him to be an eckie when he has done
things to others in a past life? How did
he earn the right to be a chosen
**** Well my humor is not always funny to some! When
I judge this *thought* I find it funny! Wouldn't Harold want
the elite of the elite to be his chosen ones? To me it doesn't matter
what past lives we had. And it doesn't to Harold I guess?
> >LOL! But actually how can you
develop a good self image if you
are carrying around all this
"past" guilt of things you believe you
did in another lifetime?
How important is it to allow this sort
> It makes for an interesting story to
someone? Or how about
this guy has carried over some of his
illness to this life?
*** Mish asked the BIG question. And here again
although it probably isn't funny to most, her question is so obvious it was
funny to me. Some people enjoy punishing themselves everyday they
wake up in the morning. Instead of waking up to *who we think we are* each
day, why not really decide to create our day differently from the same old
*problems* we wake up to? Many find it hard to let go of their drama of
life because we are addicted to emotions. A lot of us are
addicted to negative thoughts and problems. I decided when I walked away
from eckankrap, that I was going to throw everything out that I learned over the
30 years I was a member. That can be a difficult task!
Ask any of us.... I decided I also had to remove those things and people
in my life that were holding me back. It doesn't mean I won't re address
those issues such as my mother....
Getting off on my train of thought for a second; several months ago I
said out of the blue to my husband, "I think my mother is sick again". She
has an illness that requires kemo and other drugs to *put or keep* her
in remission. I KNEW she was very sick again. I also knew she was
very close to death. This past Monday morning my husband and I were
chatting about my mother again, and I said, "you know no one will bother to tell
me when she passes, but I will *just know* it when it happens". And sadly
(honest!) it hurts that she won't at least open her heart enough to let a tiny
piece of HER into my life without the cult bull shit! What a missed
opportunity! Yet the old rules from eckankrap keeps me from
contacting her because she demanded I not contact her.... so we honor that
law of non interference.
Yesterday I e-mailed the only eckist family member that will still have
anything to do with me, just to say hey. She told me mom has been very ill
again for several months. She thought I should know!
:-D I did! And I don't have the eck to guide me or my
awareness. So how did I know?
Here are a couple more examples:
I needed my husband to make copies of our insurance cards last Monday,
but I forgot to remind him. So the next day, out of the blue
the thought crossed my mind that I need him to make copies. I called him
at work and reminded him.... would you believe he was standing at the
xerox machine at that very moment when I called! LOL
Yesterday my daughter and I had eye appointments, when we left I had an
hour to run a couple errands. I had the thought that the appointments
will be canceled but they weren't going to be able to let me know because I
turned off our land line. I arrived 10 mins early
to find out the doctor had gone home an hour before because he became sick, and
they couldn't reach me because our phone was no longer in service.
Is there a collective consciousness? Where did this knowledge come
from? How am I effecting MY reality? The examples I gave comes
from somewhere right? I don't have to really pay attention, yet these
things still happen...... So I came to realize two years ago, we are
happening to reality! We have a hand in this life.
I can laugh at life, and the eck conditionings now.... (and I'm not
coming across too funny at times). BUT I can laugh at
myself! This past holiday weekend my husband and I purchased a huge
mirror to hang over the fire place we are creating..... I can either
look at myself and see this 45 year old women that is looking out of shape these
days, or I can look at myself and love me.
What are we taking into our reality each and every moment? What is
your reality? Sit with a group, say family as an example. One
of them might be feeling sick, and watch how quickly someone else pipes up and
makes it their reality too.
Anyway what ever my thoughts were a moment ago I forgot!
;-) Just for fun I think I will throw out that I intend on
watching the new show on NBC this fall called "My name is Earl" A
funny story about a guy and his understanding of karma, and I also want to
rent the movie, "I love Huckabees", fits right in with
my idea of funny. Plus I have heard so much about the movie "What The
Bleep Do We KNow" that I keep saying I'm going to watch it. I have
online friends that claim it fits right in with where I am in my reality
Thanks for asking what my reality is Truthdecider :-D