Well said Ma-li and Avonblue!
I brought this back for another look.
Yes, for years I, too, tried to believe
completely in the powers of the LEM
& Mahanta in order to have the same
(or similar) inner experiences as PT and
even Phil Morimitsu wrote about. If I had
been more prone to suggestion (mass
or self-hypnosis) and more needy then
perhaps I could have deluded myself
better and been more successful.
However, I did attempt to buy into it
via volunteer positions, doing intros,
teaching Satsang classes, trainings, etc.
and that did help to get me promoted
(and climb the initiation ladder) over
time. I had erroneously assumed that
the EK Higher Initiations people obtained
equated to having Higher "Levels" of
Consciousness. But, it became obvious
that this wasn't true due to some of the
very nasty and ego/power driven (higher)
H.I.s that I had to deal with. And, this
was not just with those fellow H.I.s from
my "local" Satsang.
When at major EK seminars I had volunteered
to work with other H.I.s and met many
more socially. I found it hard to believe
that these idiots were longer time and
higher H.I.s than I was! They had flown
under the LEM's/Mahanta's radar somehow!
How could this happen? Why would this happen?
The "How" and "Why" became more obvious
the more that I analyzed (thought about) what
Klemp was actually saying... which wasn't much,
let alone new.
That 09/2003 H.I. Letter (checK the FILES
section, members only) involving Joan's
"test" with that THIRD Temporary Postal Clerk
was a perfect example showing Klemp's true
(nasty) nature. No true Mahanta/God-man
would have made such mean spirited remarks
even if it was true... which it wasn't!
Basically, eckANKAR is like all religions and,
especially, Ruhani Satsang and Radhasoami.
Except, EKists have been desensitized with
Klemp's double-talk and their own fear of Truth.
What do they have to replace their religion with...
another religion? Why do people NEED religion...
fear, guilt, shame?
But, Why does SOUL need a religion?
Why, especially when the LEM just repeats
PT's Shariyat words and stolen (borrowed)
concepts, or when HK quotes famous people
of the past? One can read this on one's on!
Welcome to the group of survivors who also
"saw the Light", and made the choice of leaving
Eckankar. Some of us, also were sheep following
the shepherd for 30+ years. For myself, it wasn't
an easy decision, and I pondered on it for 5 years
before I took the final step to freedom. There was
a space of time where I wondered "what now" and
"where do I go from here?". Spirit has a way of guiding
us that has nothing to do with a Master, and we just
have to follow It's lead. You also will find what's right
for you, and it might be what you least expect, or
it might be something that has always been a part
of your life.
There is a book called "Creator's Code" by Ed McGaa,
Eagle Man that you might enjoy reading. I'd like to
use this quote from his book, that pretty well sums
up how I feel about religions, Masters and the like.
"God gave me a mind. It also has taught me thru
It's Nature how truly precious the meaning of the
word "Freedom" is. ..."Let's conclude that I have
chosen to sacralize Nature. I would consider it
a denial to my Ultimate Creator were I to let an
ulterior-motivated human prioritize his precepts
over me, contrary to what I can learn directly from
Walk in beauty. Walk in peace. Walk in freedom.
After close to thirty years in this organization
(read: cult) and all the ordained titles, I finally
saw the real light and resigned from eckankar
(I'm sorry I can't even grace the word with a capital
`E'). To go into the whys would take pages but suffice
it to say it almost took a board over the head to finally
break from this cult. I do feel this so-called path;
no I mean religion; wait isn't it actually the path
of total awareness; no, I mean the ancient science
of soul travel, oops, I meant the religion of light
and sound, you get the idea, I do feel this whatever
they call it, is a cult; very subtle; but a cult just the same.
A few examples: contemplate on the master;
his picture is everywhere! (books, discourses,
official pictures; now rising from the clouds even)
Stare at anyone's picture long enough and you'll
meet them in the dream state to be sure. True
contemplation of the eck works; sure, keep rereading
the shariyat tell how you'll burn forever in astral
hell if you leave the path or talk negatively about
it. Spread the `message' how else to pass along
a cult - leave posters (they even have a poster team
and coordinator for crying out loud! Hang up hu cards.
The underlying credo of this path is we are better
than anyone else. If only the best musicians, artists,
scientists, politicians were eckists than THAT would
be something. But alas, as they are, they only function
off some lower plane, so don't pay them much attention.
Talk about an EGO!!!
I'd felt for some time an inner nudge to look deeper
into my own truth but had resisted, believing I'd found
all I could ever need to reach God in eckankar. But
alas, spirit spoke over the din; it eventually leads to truth.
I sat in intros listening to real people with a heartfelt
need and desire to find God, talking of amazing dreams
and experiences, only to see their eyes glaze over when
they were fed the `required' dogma of a `rehearsed
dog and pony show'. Like, let's stop now at the most
in appropriate time and do a hu chant, or lets introduce
the LEM now; as he's the answer to everything. Or,
if you want to attend a worship service. These people
left and never came back.
No matter how much I've tried to accept otherwise
I can no longer, without complete disownment of
all common sense and rationalism, not to mention
self-respect, believe this path is valid. Books, websites,
blogs, former members and common sense individuals
keep pointing fingers at this organization, asking,
sometimes demanding, answers. Other teachings
have emerged declaring a similar lineage as eckankar
(see dhuanmi). (hey, one of these Living masters has
to be lying, right, they both claim the same lineage
except the dhunami masters bit on the ugly stick
somewhere along the line). This teaching is slowly
dying on the vine. There's absolutely no credibility
The depth of the deceit, falsehoods, singular ownership
of universal concepts, and word play in the outer and
inner organization is unfathomable. Again, when
a teaching (and its rationalizations) defies common
sense; truth is simply missing, not hidden in the morass.
It feels criminal to me. And, of course I shouldn't get
angry because that would be letting in one of the five
passions. I guess it's better to sit like a lifeless zombie
and just surrender!!! I don't think so!