Re: Back home, and back to life....
- Hi Liz,
Your shared personal anecdotes are excellent.
Much of what you've related parrallels my experience, especially
the part about emptying your mind of everything and starting
anew. This is exactly what I did as well. And the McKenna quotes
are almost identical to my own views.
I think sharing these insights are possibly one of the most
effective ways to dispell the notions eckists have of eckankar,
and of high initiates, and you and I know that such experiences
are similar to those of so many others, based on personal
conversations and observations of the personal lives of H.I.s.
It takes courage to share these experiences, since we have
seem the smears that some eckists will resort to for damage
--- In EckankarSurvivorsAnonymous@yahoogroups.com,
"ewickings" <ewickings@...> wrote:
> Back home, and back to life....
> Several months after receiving my 6th initiation, I was asked to
> ESA.time I
> I had been doing Initiations for a few years. (I only did 3) Each
> would do an Initiation, it felt as if my body was burning up fromthe inside
> out. I would end the ceremony with what looked like a sunburn on my cheeks
> ... Must have been the effects of being embarrassed(liberated) from
> knowing the truth about these initiations. I gave my exhusband his 3rd in
> 1999; that was to be the last one I would agree to do!eck. I wanted
> I was sincere about being a clear and honest channel for the
> to help others as an ESA. So I spent a good amount of timestudying the
> material. After I good amount of time of several weeks of study,I put the
> ESA material down, looked at it one last time and put it away.call for
> I was listed in the eck newsletter as an ESA. Received my first
> assistance by a young man who was very upset aboutsomething he heard about
> eckankar, and when he approached an HI in his local area, hewas attacked
> verbally for questioning. He shared he was also beingattacked on the inner
> by this HI. He wanted to know how to protect himself from thisHI?!
>we spoke for
> First I appologised, and told him I was not doing ESAs. Then
> about an hour, of which I will not go into details.name and
> The following day I notified the newsletter editor to remove my
> phone number from the list of Initiators / ESAs. I was slowlyremoving
> myself from the duties of Local Director, Media Rep., etc....LOL We
> wore many hats in our area!most of those
> I remained an active eckists for several more years. Spent
> last years away from the pigeon holes the other members triedto place me in
> And all the while, still working on me....do anything
> By Oct 2002 I had received my membership renewal, but didn't
> with it. By April 2003 I was feeling as if it was time to walk away(but
> renewed my membership anyway) but no one I spoke with,except my new husband
> of 2 1/2 years could relate to what I was experiencing. Most ofmy eckists
> friends stopped calling or hanging out. I was questioningopenly, and that
> didn't go over very well. By end of July I told my husband Icouldn't do
> this anymore. I put into motion turning in everything I in storageor was
> using relating to my duties as an HI / local eckists. By Sept.2003 I had
> faxed my resignation letter to ESC. It was around then that aneckists
> friend had contacted me via email and said hey Liz I have beenreading you
> on the eck chat groups, and I know what you are going through.SHe
> recommended I read the book "Spiritual Enlightenment, TheDamndest Thing" by
> Jed McKenna. LOL Yep I reference this book probably waytoo much, but it
> was exactly what I needed at the time! And it said what myheart had been
> telling me since that summer of 1998, when I started workingon myself.....
> You will never achieve spiritual enlightenment.
> The you that you think of as you is not you.
> The you that thinks of you as you is not you.
> There is no you, so who wishes to become enlightened?
> Who is not enlightened?
> Who will become enlightened?
> Who will be enlightened?
> Enlightenment is your destiny----more certain than sunrise.
> You cannot fail to achieve enlightenment.
> Were you told otherwise?
> Irresistible forces compel you.
> The universe insists.
> It is not within your power to fail.
> There is no path to enlightenment:
> It lies in all directions at all times.
> On the journey to enlightenment, you create and
> Destroy your own path with every step.
> No one can follow another's path.
> No one can step off the path.
> No one can lead another.
> No one can turn back.
> No one can stop.
> Enlightenment is closer than your skin,
> More immediate than your next breath,
> And forever beyond your reach.
> It need not be sought because it cannot be found.
> It cannot be found because it cannot be lost.
> It cannot be lost because it is
> Not other than that which seeks.
> The paradox is that there is no paradox.
> Is that not the damnedest thing?
> ~ Jed McKenna ~