Re: Brand New Beautiful Day
- Hello Etznab,
just wanted to let you know that I read your post through till the
end - and it's beautiful! Thanks for posting it.
All the best,
--- In EckankarSurvivorsAnonymous@yahoogroups.com, "makiztor"
> The following post was initially sent to T.S., but it has here
> been modified to fit this screen.
> Brand New Beautiful Day
> Last night I got some sleep. This morning I slept in. But today
> woke to a brand new day. What do I mean? I'll try to explain. Notacross.
> that the experience needs an explanation to be. Not for me. But I
> thought that it might be worth sharing with you.
> Maybe I can put this into some kind of context. In order to do
> that I will have to recount the past. The time before it happened.
> There is a degree of client confidentially that I will have to
> observe, but even so I believe that I am able to get the point
> For almost the last two years I had been waking up at 5:30 a.m.
> and getting ready for work by six o'clock. I worked for a person
> Alzheimer's disease who lived in a facility for same. My clientlived
> on the floor for those in the most advanced stages. After leavingand
> work in the late afternoon, I would go shopping on my way home and
> return to my 93-year-old relative who (also) had a failing memory
> some physical disabilities. One of which was bad hearing. Whenthere
> was time for myself I transcribed (typing with two fingers)thedaily
> news that I had read about in the newspaper during the day. Almostit
> always I had the television on next to my computer. I would have
> on CNN, or Hardball with Chris Matthews, etc. When it was all saidwould
> and done, my work day amounted to about eleven hours! Usually I
> get to sleep late. On most nights I actually fell asleep after12:00
> a.m. in the morning. I was getting maybe four to six hours ofsleep a
> night for almost two years.Festival
> Just before my religious New Year, and before the Diwali
> of Lights in India and the states, my client passed away. This wason
> the day before my elderly relative came out of the hospital fromit's
> surgery. I was thinking to myself, "Oh. This is the New Year. So
> time for new beginnings.layed
> Well, it has been about two or three weeks now since getting
> off. Because I had some spare time and there wasn't much postinghere.
> going on at T.S., I decided to visit E.S.A. and started posting
> Needless to say, all of the reading and typing had mostly amountedto
> more stress. This brings me closer to the present moment.for
> Last night my stomach was feeling upset, which is not normal
> me. During the day I only had one small meal followed by somegarlic
> in order to fight a cold. (A cold that I have had since beforegoing
> getting layed off! Something also not normal for me.) So before
> to bed I took a small amount of goldenseal herb and then went toto
> This morning was somehow different from other mornings. I said
> myself "I guess that goldenseal worked. I feel? I feel good." Butit
> was more than that. I felt (experienced) an undifferientiated,new
> impersonal, or totally neutral quality of being. It was a brand
> day. There wasn't anything on my mind. I woke up to therealization
> of a state which preceeded the creation of thought. From thatvantage
> point I was able to view my life over the past two years from awhole
> different angle. It was like waking up in the morning on top ahill
> in the country. It was like walking outside to sunshine and freshair
> and looking out across a beautiful valley from on top an adjacentwhole
> mountain over a beautiful landscape. So many different shapes and
> forms of different sizes... but they were somehow one. It was as
> though whatever there was in my life at that moment, it was one
> homogenous harmony!This
> I have encountered this kind of peace and tranquility before.
> time, however, it was a long time in coming. I can't reallycapture
> for you in words the scope of what I enjoyed, but I am hopingafter
> this encounter it will have a more indelible impression on mymemory
> and mind. This is the kind of thing that I would like to carryaround
> with me everywhere I go. But then, it was probably always with medisease
> anyway. In the heart of Soul.
> I should probably close with this. People with Alzheimers
> are not able to fully adapt to their environment. When workingwith
> them, you have to learn to adapt to theirs! No matter how peculiaror
> strange that might appear to be. I realized today that I had notonly
> been trying to adapt to the environment of people with poormemories.
> I was trying to adapt to the environments, the people, and everyform
> of manifestation that I encountered. I was adapting to an earlyand
> schedule; to a working environment and other people (not only
> clients); to the news in the paper and on the television (not very
> nice); to my family and home environment; to my church community;
> even to people online! Etc., Etc., Etc., Last but not least, I wasof
> trying to adapt to "my own" thoughts and feelings about what all
> this meant. To me! This is why today I said that I woke up to abrand
> new day. There was a moment that I found just after waking, andwhere
> I paused. It was a moment that felt fresh and new. It was a momentto
> before thought of future or memory of past. It not only helped me
> feel relaxed. It helped me to realize something that was more(At
> valuable than words could say. Somehow. Some way. I had recognized
> the innate ability to return to a state of brand new beginning.
> any moment night or day!) It dawned on me today (again) that therephysical
> was (is) a place before thought, before emotion, and before
> reality. It was, in fact, their place of origin. It was the placeof
> sustenance for all that followed or what ultimately registered asmy
> various states of consciousness. Today I found the time and placefor
> a brand new beautiful day. Even more than that, I realized (maybeof
> even "U2") that I don't have to let it get away!
> Speaking of a "beautiful day" (and this hadn't occurred to me
> until near the end of this post), some years ago around the time
> New Year's Eve I recorded a live version of the song "A BeautifulThat
> Day" by U2 as they sung it at a club in New York City. Some words
> were sung at the end of that song that sounded to me (I could be
> wrong) like: The goal is Soul! Soul! The goal is Soul! Soul! Etc.
> Please if anybody knows the exact words to that song let me know.
> Meanwhile I will check online to see if I can find them. I do know
> that in the radio version, and even in (I believe) the recored
> version, that part of the song (that I heard) was/is censored.
> is, you don't here those last words at all (So much for freedom ofbeyond a
> speech. Not to mention Freedom of Religion!!!). However, even if
> those words are not the same as the ones I heard, I do know,
> doubt (I have the recording) that there were more words at the endof
> that song.down
> Well, it appears that even the online version is censored too.
> Here is a link:
> Oh! Wait just a minute! HERE IS THE UNCENSORED VERSION (scroll
> to the last words):
> Though I initially entitled this post Brand New Day, I now have
> changed it to Brand New Beautiful Day.