To Dolly - Coping with Post Eckankar
- Hi Dolly,
I and others who have been in your position do empathize with you. I
had a similar experience to yours with regards to still attending
Eckankar functions after reading Ford Johnson's book and making up my
mind about the org. For three months, I was involved in an assignment
for the org, which I simply couldn't abandon. It was the most
difficult time of my spiritual life, but I survived.
I strongly endorsed Mish's suggestions to you that you read the
archived material of Ford Johnson's TS/HCS websites. You'll find it a
very helpful exercise.
Remember the restlessness and the inner nudge that pushed you to the
computer to discover the truths about Eckankar? That was the action
of the God-voice, the highest and truest connection between every
human being and the Creator. That is the Divine Presence Mish is
talking about. Some of us have been aware of It since childhood. For
me, it was my quest to know more about this Presence that was already
working in my life, that led me through several paths ending with
Eckankar. There they put a face and a name to It. But as you now
know, it was a fraudulent mask which Twitchell, Gross, and Klemp
dared to put on the face of God.
Cultivate your relationship with this Presence. Speak to It like you
have started doing. You'll soon discover a source of security and
protection that makes any that you'll receive from a human being or
org pale to insignificance.
There is a parallel to your health problem on pg 255-6 of Ford
Johnson's book , Confessions. Here the person recounts a severe jaw
ache he suffered as part of the process of leaving/decoupling from
Eckankar. This was his conclusion, `to resign ones's membership is
not sufficient, one has to actually un-cord oneself from the
Eventually, you'll heal from the branding Eckankar burned into your
psyche. After that you'll experience a sense of joyous freedom and
rapid spiritual unfoldment. I can say what you're going through is
normal for most ex-Eckists.
Hang in there,