1150Re: Life after Eckankar - Coping - my story
- Feb 20, 2006Hello Dolly
thanks for your post. Life can be difficult after leaving a group we
felt at home with, can't it! See below for more remarks.
--- In EckankarSurvivorsAnonymous@yahoogroups.com, "dollyreader"
>*** Not in this way. But I did feel a bit empty even if I wasn't
> Hi Guys, This is Dolly here.
> About 7 - 8 weeks have passed since I last posted. Thankyou for
> all your helpful comments.
> BUT - I am not coping too well with life in general.
> I feel like I am in 'No Man's Land' - I don't seem to know 'ME'
> anymore. I haven't told any other eckists here- so I have no one
> to talk to.
> Have any of you experienced this limbo?
involved in eck life so much, and we didn't have so many eckist
friends. My husband left with me, so that was very good.
> Back when I first found out about the 'Eckankar Hoax' 23 Dec 05 -*** I have heard similar stories about eckists who wanted to leave
> still had to go to the Australian Seminar - held this year in
> Brisbane in mid January. I had already paid to go - and
> was part of a group of voluteers and I couldn't let them down.
but still had a commitment to fulfill - and they all said it was
terrible and they were happy when it was over and they could leave.
>What*** This must have been terrible indeed.
> a weekend that was to get thru - with only having just found
> out 'The Truth' a few weeks before. I talked with all the ones I
> knew, but it felt empty - a sort of nothingness!
> When I wasn't needed I just sat around for the 3 days in the coffee*** Those curses are very powerful, and they are implanted in our
> areas, and didn't attend ANY of the talks or sessions - (Rich
> & Phil Morimitzu and their wives were the guests this year).
> A week after that about 18 January - I woke up one morning - went
> move and experienced excruciating pain - according to the Dr - a
> trapped sciatic nerve.
> Working each day has been very painful - constant pain for 3
> (I refuse to take painkillers) - never had a sore back in my life
> before. - Chiropractor couldn't fix it - anyway with some
> exercises - in the last week - it has gotton a lot better.
> But what crossed my mind when I was in pain - was maybe this was
> a 'hex' or 'curse' that is mentioned in the Eck teachings, - if
> anyone dares to leave.
minds. So it's extremely important to liberate yourself from them as
thoroughly as possible. What my husband and I did was taking our
energy back from Eckankar and sending everything that was not ours
(all the curses, all the energy) back to them. We call
it "separating of energies". You just feel inside yourself what it
is that is yours, and this you take back, and you send back the rest
of the energies.
> I am not aware of having read about themThey are all over the books and the discourses - look at the
> prior to December though, only what I've read on the Web sites
Shariyat! In my opinion, the most powerful curses are in there. And
Paul hid them cleverly between paragraphs of saying "other religions
would say this or that" and mention the curses of others, and then
going on doing the same thing a few paragraphs later!
> Also, I was shocked to learn that Eckankar says that 'the kal' is*** I can completely relate to this. I have since learnt to feel my
> the God we were brought up with.
> Each time I go to say something to God - I usually start to say
> word Mahan....and have to stop myself - and then feel lost coz I
> haven't got a 'face' to associate God with, and don't know what
higher self - which was replaced by the mahanta during my time in
eckankar. And don't worry if the mahanta still comes up, this needs
some (or even a lot of) time before it fades away. The most
important thing is to stop yourself and to become aware what you are
saying. You are doing this anyway, so that's a huge step already. I
started to read "The Impersonal Life" soon after I left, and it
helped me enormously to understand my own higher self. It's a bit
Christian but it's very good in my opinion.
> I know that Eckankar is soooo wrong -*** This is very good. And be assured that the "God who made the
> -I've tried to apologise to the REAL GOD for putting an 'unstable
> fake' between myself and the true God. But I don't seem to know
> GOD is anymore,.. So lately I've taken to starting off by
> "Now -To the God who made the Universe" - ....(hopefully saying
> rules out Paul The Twit as well)... this is me here.. - but that
> seems to be about as far as I get!!
Universe" understands and appreciates you!
> Some of you guys agreed with me when I initially said - 'I will*** Exactly. My husband and I resigned immediately and it felt so
> away and just not renew this year - but with not having told anyone
> here - I am starting to feel as tho I want to 'resign' -just to
> the whole thing behind me - becoz I feel as tho I'm still 'in it'
> AND I DON'T WANT TO BE!!!!
good! Of course it's different for anybody of us, but we felt that a
complete and thorough cut was the best thing to do for us (and I can
tell you that for me, it's still difficult to let go!!)
> Part of me reasons, that as soon as I'm released from it (when I*** I think it will get better for sure. Healing takes some time and
> sign the resignation letter) - I can heave a big sigh and
> will get better (Still getting Mystic Worlds etc)
you will have made the first step towards it.
> What do you guys think, - am I in for more problems once they know*** It depends on your area of course. Personally, I think it would
> I've resigned? - problems such as - GETTING RUNG BY THE RESA FOR
> EXPLANATION AS TO WHY I RESIGNED - etc etc or will they just
> ignore me.
even be good to be rung by the resa for an explanation! But mostly
people don't dare to ask because they are afraid of the answers they
might get - so they will just ignore you. They did so with us!
> Thanks guys for taking the time to read this - I hope I haven't*** On the contrary!!! Thanks for sharing with us. LOL
> bored you too much. P.S. what does LOL mean? -
means "Laughing out loud". There's also ROFL (Rolling On the Floor
Laughing) etc. etc.
Take care and all the best to you!
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