As one of the on-going ministries of Chi Rho Press, here
is a meditation from �The Road to Emmaus,� a book of
daily meditations written by and for the LGBT community
of faith. This meditation was written by Philip E.
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My strongest memory of James, a friend who died of AIDS,
is of a postcard he once sent, a picture of a young man
on roller skates dressed as a fairy godmother, waving a
wand, and holding a sign which read: �It takes guts to be
a butterfly!� How true. Even the caterpillar must die
to its old self, must trust that in becoming a vulnerable
chrysalis, it will emerge as a new being, a butterfly.
I remember, too, another gay man, lying on the sofa at
his sister�s house in the middle of an afternoon,
dehydrated, unable to keep food down, with a high
temperature, a headache, and the sweats; not even
diagnosed yet, he had already stopped caring and was
ready to die. Suddenly, his three-year-old niece,
playing quietly in the same room, silently got up from
her play, walked over to the sofa, studied him a moment,
then bent over, lightly kissed his forehead, and without
saying a word returned to her quiet play. As he later
said, that simple expression of love gave him both the
motivation and strength to fight the illness. She had,
he said, burst open the walls of his cocoon.
Death, suffering, and the pain of breaking open are all
integral parts of the human experience; but so, too, are
joy, love, and hope. Think of Jesus� willingness to
trust God enough to be broken and put to death. In the
end, he rose, not as a resuscitated corpse, but as a new
being. The human heart, in dying to itself, can also
become a new creation.
Although often cited as an example of Christ�s miraculous
powers, the miracle most meaningful to us in today�s
reading may not be the multiplication of the loaves and
fishes, but rather the miracle that new life can be
engendered by dying to self and serving others. Just as
the physical limits of this world�s time and space were
transcended by the breaking again and again of the loaves
and fishes into a meal for four thousand, so the passage
also contains an invitation to us to love and serve others,
and so to break out of our shells and experience the
miracle of transformation.
Jesus, I place myself and my life in your hands today.
Give me the trust, faith, and just plain guts to break
out of myself in the service of others. Amen.
Grace and peace,
R. Adam DeBaugh and Kevin Stone Fries
Chi Rho Press
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