Chi Rho Reflection for the Week of October 3, 2004
- Chi Rho Reflection for the Week of October 3, 2004
As one of the on-going ministries of Chi Rho Press,
here is a selection from our new book of daily devotions,
"Living as the Beloved: One Day at a Time," by the Rev.
Dr. Sandra Bochonok.
Please read the Gospel and Dr. Bochonok's meditation.
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Reach out to God
When morning came, all the chief priests and the
elders of the people took counsel against Jesus to
put him to death; and they bound him and led him away
and delivered him to Pilate the governor. When Judas,
his betrayer, saw that he was condemned, he repented
and brought back the thirty pieces of silver to the
chief priests and the elders, saying, "I have sinned
in betraying innocent blood." They said, "What is
that to us? See to it yourself." And throwing down
the pieces of silver in the temple, he departed; and
he went and hanged himself.
Suicide is dangerous. Do not do it. We are most
vulnerable when in despair. Judas Iscariot took
his life during lonely moments of shame, self-hatred,
grief, and profound emotional remorse. He died as a
fallen disciple of Christ. We may never fully realize
his true motives for betraying Jesus. We can never
understand the agony of his final thoughts. Judas
took those to his grave, but we can learn from his
The day Judas died was a tragedy for everyone. He
lost hope in God's mercy. After spending three
amazing years with Jesus in intensive spiritual
formation, within a few hours, he completely
self-destructed. Jesus was to die because of Judas'
words and actions. The victorious religious leaders
did not care for Judas at all. To them, he was just
a pawn in their plot. Judas was no longer useful to
But Jesus, even while experiencing his profound
moments of betrayal, had called Judas, "Friend."
He will forgive with his final breaths his taunting
tormentors as he dies on the cross. I believe Jesus
forgave his friend Judas, even as he was being betrayed.
If only Judas had waited a little longer. Perhaps he
could have become a great example of divine forgiveness
such as the great early Christian missionary Paul.
Perhaps he too could have been used by God to write
profound letters to the Christian churches.
Many people struggle with suicide ideation. No matter
what we have done, I believe God will forgive a truly
repentant heart. If you are struggling with thoughts
and feelings about suicide, reach out to a friend.
Reach out to God. God is as close as your breathing,
nearer than your hands and feet.
Years ago a woman shared with me her remarkable story.
One night in despair she took a loaded weapon, locked
the door, and placed the gun in her mouth. She heard
within her a still, small voice which said, "Don't do
it." She removed the gun and called a friend. The
next day, she contacted a therapist. She began living
one day at a time. One day at a time with the power of
God has helped her live a blessed life. You can too.
The Founder of the Franciscan orders, St. Francis of
Assisi (1181-1226) gives us this prayer, "Lord, make us
instruments of thy peace; where there is hatred, let us
sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is
discord, vision. Where there is doubt, faith; where
there is despair, hope. Where there is darkness, light.
Where there is sadness, joy. O divine master, grant
that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console;
to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to
love; for it is in giving that we receive, it is in
pardoning that we are pardoned, and it is in dying
that we are born to eternal life. Amen."
Grace and peace,
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