Author: Pat Phillips
Summary: Mike is infatuated with Kitty, but
he knows that he's never going to get anywhere
with her. Jean tries to give Mike a hand --
and the teacher ends up learning something
from the student.
Rating/warning & pairing/characters:
Jean, Kitty, OC(Mike)
With the exception of Mike McWhirter,
I do not own these characters. Instead,
they are the property of Marvel Comics.
As a firm believer in property rights,
it's only reasonable that I specify that
my use of these characters should in no
way be interpreted as a threat to Marvel's
ownership of them.
All of my fan fiction, including this story,
is a not-for-profit venture. After all, when
you get down to it, who would pay for this
Readers of my other fiction may notice that
Mike is a minor character in "A Sacrifice
of Flowers". Note that this story assumes
that there was significant period of time
between the defeat of Magneto and the
Brotherhood at the Statue of Liberty and
Logan's leaving to investigate the Alkali Lake
facility. During that time Jean, Scott, Ororo,
and Logan conducted missions for the Professor.
That may not be exactly canon, but it allows
for some interesting stories.
Kitty looked over my paper, sighed, and said, "That's not right,
Mike. Let's go over it again."
Arrgh. I was having a terrible time with this algebra stuff.
Danged if I could see the point to all this "x squared times y
squared over z" stuff. Even worse, I could tell that I was getting
on poor Kitty's last nerve. She's actually very patient. But
nobody should have to put up with me and math at the same time.
Fortunately, Kitty's not as physical as Marie. Marie doesn't
hesitate to smack me upside the head when she thinks I'm being
dense. She says it's a southern thing and I just have to put up
with it -- although I did refuse to say "thank you, ma'am" after
every time she hits me.
If Kitty did that sort of thing, I'd be unconscious and bleeding
from my ears after a half-hour of tutoring.
Kitty started the lesson again. What was this? The third time?
Working with Kitty has it's ups and downs in terms of learning
something. Up side: Kitty's a pretty good tutor and I have learned
a lot from her. Down side: I often get distracted and spend a lot
of the lesson looking at Kitty. The volume of Kitty's body is a lot
more interesting than the volume of a sphere.
Kitty's sixteen or so -- which makes her two years older than me.
So she doesn't see me as a guy. Instead she sees me as a kid. And
that sucks big time.
Which wasn't the kind of sucking I had in mind...
Oops, I was drifting again. Kitty has this wide and very sexy
mouth. She's a natural-born smiler. When she's not just-plain
grinning, she has a half-smile that puts everyone she talks to at
ease. I wonder if she knows that the first thing a guy notices when
he's face-to-face with her is that mouth. And I wonder how she
would react if she knew exactly what we usually find ourselves
thinking about after we notice that mouth...
Um? Oh, yeah, back to reality. Now what was Kitty talking about
She was facing the blackboard, scrawling away like mad. She's not a
very big girl. And she has this tendency to... move when she's
writing on the board.
I tried. I really, really tried, to concentrate on the board.
Instead, I found myself concentrating on the more mobile parts of
That was really unfair to her. Kitty was trying to help me and I
was treating her lessons like they were soft-core porn. But I
couldn't help myself. Dang it, she's the prettiest girl I've ever
Dr. Grey stuck her head in the classroom.
"Kitty, could I have a moment with Michael, please? Say, fifteen
Kitty nodded and put down her chalk.
"Sure, Dr. Grey. Is there anything I can do to help?" she asked.
"No. I just need a little time with Michael."
Kitty gave both of us a funny look as she left.
Dr. Grey sat down at another desk. She's old -- twenty-eight or
nine, I think. She teaches classes and is also the school doctor.
Oh, and lets not forget that she's a telepath and one of the X-Men.
She can be a little scary, but I think she's OK.
"How's it going, Michael?" she asked.
"I'm having some problems paying attention, Dr. Grey."
"I know. You're so upset that I can sense it all the way on the
other side of the mansion."
"Really? Uh, does that mean you can tell what I'm thinking?"
"No," she said firmly, "I would have to directly enter your mind to
do that. And without your permission, that wouldn't be right. But
I can tell what you're feeling. People radiate emotion and a
telepath can't help but pick that up. That means I know why you're
having so much trouble."
"Oh, nuts. This is embarrassing."
"Please don't feel that way, Michael. There's nothing wrong with
being attracted to Kitty. She's a very pretty girl and a good
person. As far as I'm concerned, you have great taste. But...
well, you do know about her and Peter?"
Oh, heck, I had to talk to somebody before I went crazy, "Yeah.
Pete is Mother Russia's answer to Brad Pitt -- and a really nice guy
to boot. He and Kitty may as well be Siamese twins, they spend so
much time together."
"I'm sorry, Michael. All I can say is that you're not the first
person to find yourself in this kind of situation."
"Yeah. You're lucky that you'll never get stuck in something like
She gave me a long look before answering, "Yes."
"This is just a complete pain! I see Kitty every day. I like her.
But I know it'll never happen. First, there's Pete. And then, when
you get down to it, Kitty and I really don't have a lot in common."
"I think I understand, Michael."
"It really sucks to want somebody you just can't have, Dr. Grey.
It's like you're on fire inside. You watch everything they do and
listen to every word they say. Hoping for something that shows that
they care about you. And it bugs the heck out of you when you see
them with someone else."
"That's... very interesting, Michael."
"And the worst of it is that you just don't know what to do. You're
scared of doing something stupid. You're scared that you might lose
it and do something that's just plain wrong. But you're also scared
of doing nothing. Because the only way you have a chance with them
is if you let them know how you feel."
Dr. Grey looked a little distant. She must hear stuff like this
from us kids all the time. Jeeze, I shouldn't be dumping my
problems on her like this.
"I'm sorry, Dr. Grey. I guess I'm talking too much. I'll shut up
She focused back on me. "There's nothing to be sorry about, Mike.
I'm always around if you want to talk. Is there anything else I can
do to help?"
"Nah. Thanks for offering, though. I've just gotta do some growing
up. You don't have these kind of problems when you're a grownup."
She didn't say anything to that. I guess I shouldn't go around
saying the obvious.
"I'm sorry you're having a hard time, Michael," she said. "But
remember what I said -- you can always come talk to me."
"Thanks, Dr. Grey," I said. And I meant it. I really had needed to
talk to someone.
Then Dr. Grey gave me this big, long hug. That was a bit of a
surprise. Dr. Grey's a nice lady, but she's kinda prim and proper
and she'd never done anything like that before.
"No, Michael. Thank you."
I'm not sure what she meant by that.