Title: Many Happy Returns
Author: Jordanna Morgan
Authors Email: librarie@...
Archive Rights: Please request the authors consent.
Rating/Warnings: G. Some mild X2 spoilers.
Characters: Ensemble. More X-brats than I can usually cope with.
Setting: Post-X2, but with Jean.
Summary: Rogue plots a surprise for a friend--so why does Jubilee have
Disclaimer: Marvel and Fox create the characters that sell. Not me.
Notes: My first real exercise in trying to write those dreaded teenagers.
Somehow Jubilee took over, and I ended up with something of a story within
Many Happy Returns
*"Happy birthday, dear Kitty
Logan tilted his head around the doorjamb of the TV room, sniffing the
odors of chocolate cake, fruit punch and burning wax. Kids and adults alike
were crowded around the beaming Kitty Pryde, as she drew a deep breath and
tried to blow out all seventeen of the candles lovingly arranged on her cake.
Rogue was sitting on one end of the couch beside Bobby. She clapped her
gloved hands, along with all the others, as Kitty successfully extinguished
every candle at one go--but Logan saw the flash of long white forelocks as
Rogues head turned his way.
She had an annoying habit of knowing when he was nearby.
With a scowl, Logan ducked past the doorway and continued on to the garage,
searching his pockets for a cigar. He was in the mood for a drink, and that
meant going elsewhere. Preferably on Summers borrowed motorcycle.
The fact that hed been giving a lot of thought to birthdays had nothing to
do with it. Really.
Recently there had been a whole rash of them at Xaviers School for Gifted
Youngsters, and each one was dutifully observed by the staff and students.
They might as well have just thrown a big noisy party every week, at this
rate. Logan vaguely understood that there was some odd paradox involved. An
effort to make every child feel special, yet normal--because nothing was
more a part of normal childhood than a birthday party, a childs own day to
*be* special each year.
Not that Logan knew the first thing about childhood.
After a few moments of searching the vast garage, he found Cykes bike,
rather ineffectively hidden under a blue tarp. A quick manipulation with
one half-extended claw, and the engine rumbled to life, ready to carry him
off to someplace where he wouldnt have to think about anything for a
while. Because life at a school, in his opinion, required entirely too much
Thoughts about things like
(If he couldnt know the year of his own birth, it would have been nice to
at least know the month. Was it summer when he drew his first breath? Or
Thoughts about things like
aging. Or a lack thereof.
(Sixteen years had found no change in him. Just how slowly did he really
age? Could he bear this closeness to others that he was only just beginning
to feel, if
he might outlive them all?)
There was something about birthdays that seemed like confirmation of ones
self. To be acknowledged and embraced by family, parents--by those from
whom ones own life had sprung. Those to whom one really *was* special...
not a freak, not a monster, but a *person*. A human being.
Pick a reason why that was something he could never experience.
He had no family, and certainly no parents. He had no past to secure his
sense of who he truly was. He *was* a freak--a freak of science and human
cruelty, even among his fellow freaks of nature. And a monster?
Yeah, that too
when he felt like it.
And he was feeling like it now.
There was a birthday tradition at Xaviers. Defying their bedtime curfew,
older students would sneak into the room of whomever had just turned a year
older, hanging out until late into the night and monopolizing their
friends new presents. The telepaths among the adults, at least, must have
known about these covert after-parties--but if they did, they seemed to
look the other way.
Since it was her birthday, it was Kittys turn to have teens on a sugar
high converging on the room she shared with Jubilee. But then, Jubilee was
a sugar high incarnate, so a little more hyperactivity didnt phase Kitty.
No pun intended.
By one oclock, Kitty and Jubilees last remaining companions were Rogue
and Bobby--who had a rare gift for hanging out with girls without feeling
the least bit uncomfortable. Or maybe he was just that infatuated with Rogue.
"Logans home," Bobby announced unnecessarily from his perch by the window,
as a motorcycle rumbled distantly up the driveway. Jubilee didnt react at
all, but then she had her head between a set of earphones, bopping away to
one of Kittys new CDs. Kitty herself just looked up from her magazine with
a shrug, and Rogue frowned thoughtfully.
"So how come he never shows up at any of our birthday parties?" Kitty
mused, an idle question directed at Rogue. "Youd think hed come to yours
Rogues frown deepened, and she tugged at one of the white locks hanging
down the side of her face, absently looking for split ends. She didnt
realize that was a habit of hers when something made her think about
Logan--*really* think about him, about what was in his mind and heart.
Before Rogue could dredge up any answers from the part of Logans essence
that was still inside her head, Bobby posed a theory of his own. "Maybe he
doesnt like to think about--you know, getting older. I heard he *isnt*.
Not like us, anyway."
Seated on the floor, Rogue drew her knees up and hugged them to her chest,
pulling the simplest answer from her tangle of lingering Logan-impressions.
"I think its more about
family. Somethin he thinks hell never have."
"Who?" This came from Jubilee, who had tuned in on the conversation while
"Logan," Kitty and Bobby answered in unison, and Kitty giggled.
"Oh. Him." Jubilee went back to rummaging through the pile of music on the
bed beside her.
Rogue scowled, her Mississippi drawl thickening in her agitation. "Whadaya
mean, oh, him? He saved my life, an he helped save yours too at that
awful place up in Canada, didnt he?"
"*Ugh*. Can we please not talk about that?"
"Logans part of *this* family now," Rogue grumbled defiantly, folding her
arms. "He oughta be treated like it. In fact
he oughta have a birthday of
Kittys eyes widened, Bobbys mouth popped open, and Jubilee did both.
"Aw, geez," Bobby murmured. "Logan? Hed tear our arms off and beat us with
em if we tried to throw him a party."
"He would not!" Rogue reached up to give him a half-playful slap on the
knee, then sobered slightly and tapped the side of her head. "I know better."
A moment of uncomfortable silence followed. Kitty finally broke it by
asking, "Well, what day would you even pick? I mean, even *he* doesnt know
when he was born, right?"
"Maybe the day he first came here with you," Bobby suggested, nodding to
But Rogue had a distant look in her eyes again, and shook her head. "No
not then. I know a better day." She looked around at them gravely. "The day
all that stuff happened at Alkali Lake."
Jubilee made a fairly impressive imitation of one of Logans own growls,
reaching for her headset. Rogue deftly yanked it away from under her fingers.
"Listen. Somethin happened to Logan that day. He--I dont know, made up
his mind about us. About his life. I think thats when he really decided to
"And thats a *good* thing?" Jubilee retorted.
Bobby cut in before Rogue could fire a comeback. "So youre saying, like,
the day he made a fresh start? To have a birthday for that?"
Kitty smiled. "Count me in. I think its kinda sweet. Besides, any reason
for a party is good with me."
Rogue beamed at her friend, then turned a melting gaze on the one eminently
meltable object in the room: the Iceman.
"Okay, okay. Im in too," Bobby sighed, a fatalistic grin spreading over
"I knew I could count on you. Jubes?"
"Nuh-uh." Jubilee reached for the headset Rogue had taken away, only to be
stymied when Rogue pulled off one long glove and waggled her fingers with
an evil grin. In a huff Jubilee argued, "I cant believe you think hed
even like it. I mean, Logan hates us--well, maybe not you, Rogue, but the
rest of us. Did you *see* how mad he got when I switched his cigars with
those chocolate ones?"
"Well, gosh, Jubes, I wonder why," Rogue retorted sarcastically. Jubilee
clearly needed some extra tutoring in physics from Professor Xavier--she
had no concept of cause and effect.
Jubilee rolled her eyes. "Im telling you, its a waste of time. Hes not a
*party* animal--hes just an animal."
Rogue bounced to her feet, dropping the glove she had removed. However,
before Jubilee could let out the squeak that was gathering in her throat,
Bobby lunged forward and put his hand on Rogues arm--taking care to make
contact only with her shirtsleeve. "Hey, come on."
Rogue gave Jubilee a venomous glare, but nodded sullenly to Bobby and bent
down to pick up her glove.
"I swear, Jubes, if you *dare* tell Logan what were planning
" she said,
jerking the glove onto her hand.
"Yeah, whatever." Managing to retrieve her hostage headset at last, Jubilee
returned to the oblivion of Kittys new Goo Goo Dolls CD, leaving her
companions to a scheme of the sort she was usually the first one to take
part in. Even Rogue, through her irritation, had to wonder what upset her
friend so much about the idea.
"So," Kitty began gingerly, "how long have we got to plan this?"
With less than a month before the date Rogue had set, she, Bobby and Kitty
were soon busy preparing for their plot. The word quietly passed among the
student body, or at least the older students who could keep a secret. Most
of the girls thought the idea of a birthday party for Logan was odd, but
sweet; most of the boys were just morbidly curious as to how the Wolverine
Somehow--and it must have been the Professors or Doctor Greys telepathy
again--the teachers got wind of the plot as well. Nothing was said, but the
adults were suddenly just *there* to help when needed. Well, Doctor Grey,
Miss Munroe and Mister Wagner were, anyway. Mister Summers needed a little
prompting, but his grumbling was really quite good-humored.
The only person who failed to get into the spirit of things was Jubilee.
A year before, soldiers had come to the school. They had invaded the one
home where she had always felt safe and secure, and carried her off to a
cold, frightening place where she thought she was going to die. Her
teachers had come for her, and now she was safe again--but the security
didnt come back so easily. And part of that was because of the Wolverine.
Shed heard the rumors. Vague talk about how Logan had *come* from that
nasty place to begin with, how he had known the man who kidnapped them. In
Jubilees mind, Logan was a part of what had happened--and it was part of
him. Even the fact that hed demolished a number of Strykers soldiers was
scary instead of comforting. As quickly as the teachers had cleaned up the
blood, it wasnt quick enough to keep Jubilee from seeing it.
Now Rogue wanted to celebrate the anniversary of that nightmare in Logans
The week before the target date, Kitty volunteered their room for one last
illicit late-night planning session. Disgusted, Jubilee abandoned her warm
bed to go down to the kitchen and find herself some candy. The next day was
a Saturday, and her big plans for a shopping spree were going to be spoiled
if they all didnt go away soon and let her get some beauty sleep.
She was crossing the upstairs gallery, headed for the staircase, when one
of the shadows cast upon the floor moved slightly.
With a start Jubilee turned, finding a distinctive silhouette against the
window. Logan was sitting on the broad sill, dressed in jeans and a black
tank top, one knee drawn up to his chest. He was watching her, with those
hazel eyes that she sometimes felt were just a little too amber to be quite
"Sorry I startled you," he murmured laconically. Considering that shed
always done her best to avoid him, Jubilee hadnt often heard him speak,
and the quietness of his voice surprised her. His tone was hushed in regard
for the sleeping residents of the mansion.
just what Jubilee should have been doing. It occurred to her that
she could put an end to the whole conspiracy then and there, by telling
Logan what Rogue and Bobby and Kitty and Peter were talking about in her
room at that very moment. But she held her tongue--not really because she
was afraid Rogue would make good on her threats, but because of that
slightly out-of-shape little fiber of decency in her being that knew she
would upset her friend.
Rogue had sucked the thoughts and feelings out of this savage not once, but
twice--and rather than fear him, she practically idolized him. Jubilee
decided it was time to find out why. So, reluctantly, she stepped closer to
the windowsill where he sat.
Logan smirked as he watched her wary movements. After the pranks she had
played on him--her private revenge against the intimidation and discomfort
he made her feel--he certainly had no reason to be fond of her.
"Scared of me, little girl?"
Indignance at being called "little girl", more than anything, compelled
Jubilee to stiffen her spine and react with bravado. "No way."
She thought she saw that wry twist of a smile deepen slightly, but then he
just turned back to the window, as if dismissing her. That rankled her too,
and in one last bold step, she came to stand at the opposite end of the sill.
He continued to ignore her, so she looked out as well, trying to see what
was so interesting to him. All she saw was the veranda below, the gardens
and grounds beyond. Granted, those owlish eyes of his saw a lot better than
hers in the dark, but there was simply nothing out there.
"Whatcha doing?" she finally mumbled at last.
He shrugged his powerful shoulders. "Watching."
She thought about asking what he was watching, but decided on a different
tact. "Couldnt sleep?"
He blinked, without turning to look at her. "No."
His placid responses emboldened Jubilee. Remembering the first night Logan
had spent at the school--it was hard to forget, considering what had
happened to Rogue--she ventured, "Bad dreams?"
This time he did turn. She clamped down on a sudden gut urge to flinch
away, but he simply looked at her for a moment, at last letting out
something like a sigh. "Yeah, kid. Bad dreams."
It seemed perfectly weird to Jubilee that something like Logan could have
nightmares--after all, *he* was one himself. Even without claws
down on her end of the windowsill, her gaze traveling to his hands. They
were clasped around his knee, his entwined fingers oddly graceful for
someone so rough-looking.
She had never seen his claws--not really, although she was vaguely aware
that he had used them at Alkali Lake. All she knew about them was what
Rogue and Bobby had told her, and the mental images unnerved her. She found
herself wondering now if the reality was quite as bad as what she imagined.
He was looking at her again, conscious of her scrutiny. "What?"
Jubilee looked up at him, swallowed hard, and mentally dared herself.
"I want to see
" She gulped in a breath, and pointed at his hands. "You
He gaped at her, which was pretty interesting in and of itself. She hadnt
really thought anything surprised him. A variety of unspoken thoughts
passed over his face, and for a moment Jubilee thought he was going to ask
her why she wanted to see--a question she had no good answer for. But then
his expression shifted again, to something more closed and masklike.
Without taking his challenging eyes from hers, he unclasped his hands and
sat up straight. Lifting his right hand between them, he closed his fist.
Then a lot of things happened at once. A twitch and clench of his fingers;
the ripple of something *moving* beneath the skin of his forearm; and
remarkably, a sound, like nothing Jubilee had ever heard before. It was the
soft yet sharp sound of something metallic as it penetrated flesh.
And the claws were suddenly *there*, three long shiny metal daggers
protruding from between Logans knuckles, catching the moonlight with a
kind of savage beauty.
Jubilee recoiled. She couldnt help it, in the first instant at least. Her
back rammed stiffly against the frame of the window, and she stared
wide-eyed at Logans freakish armaments. She couldnt even fathom how those
wicked things could fit under his skin.
At the moment, she was beyond denying her own fear. She was afraid to look
away from those claws, as if they might wind up planted in her gut if she
didnt hold them at bay with her eyes. He turned his hand, and she didnt
need to see his face to know that he was examining them, too--with
thoughtful indifference, the way someone would study their fingernails or
the lines of their palm. After so long, to him, they were just another part
of his anatomy.
Taking a deep breath, Jubilee forced her muscles to relax. She dared a
brief glance up at Logans eyes, and found that he was watching her again.
She licked her lips and tracked down her voice.
did *he* do this? The man who came for us last year?"
Her eyes had quickly gone back to his claws, but she heard him draw a deep
breath and let it out. "Yeah."
"Did you *let* him?"
The words came out in a moment of passion at the horror of it, and Jubilee
instantly wanted to take them back. Her frightened eyes shot up to Logans,
but what she found there was not anger--only an incredibly profound sadness.
His reply was little more than a whisper. "I dont know."
He could have lied to her. He could have told her no--that only by force
could he have been mutilated so, that nothing in him could ever have
*wanted* the claws. But he didnt. He made no presumptions of what he might
have once been.
Jubilee felt suddenly very small, as the strange feeling came over her that
this man had lived and died many times.
Her fingers trembled slightly as she reached toward his hand. His head
cocked to one side, brows lowering dubiously, and she thought he might pull
his hand away or retract the claws--but instead, he only turned his fist a
little, turning the sharpest edges away from her.
With one finger, she barely skimmed the place where metal met flesh, then
ventured a bolder touch. To her amazement, his hand relaxed beneath hers,
his fist slowly unclenching.
The metal of the claws was *warm*! Somehow she had expected them to be
cold--but then she realized that they had been sheathed within the warmth
of his own body. His skin closed around the roots of the blades as though
they belonged there, and beneath the back of his hand, she could feel the
hardness of whatever structure or mechanism guided their extension.
How many people had these things killed?
It would have made sense to wonder what it would feel like to be run
through by those claws. Yet instead, Jubilee found herself wondering what
it felt like for Logan. To cut and stab with weapons that were a part of
him; to feel the life shudder out of something--or someone--as it *died* on
his claws. She thought about that
and for the first time, she considered
the possibility that the Wolverine might not take pleasure in hurting people.
She understood all at once.
Logans bad dreams were about this; about the people, or the man, who had
done this to him. When those nightmares left him lurking at windows,
watching the night, what he was really watching for was other men like
that--and if, or *when* they came, he and his claws would be there to meet
The sense of security Jubilee had lost a year before came flooding back. In
the past Logans presence had prevented it, but now, his presence
His fist clenched again, and as the claws slowly retracted, Jubilee *felt*
them slide back under Logans skin. She saw the three deep narrow gashes
they left behind; she watched them heal in a matter of seconds, from open
wounds to fading bruises to perfect unmarked flesh. Then he lowered his
hand from beneath hers, and it was met discreetly in his lap by his other
hand, to rub his knuckles in a way that looked deceptively casual.
Jubilee noticed, and her heart plummeted in the dismay of a sudden
revelation. "It hurts?"
"Its nothing new, kid," he said quietly, and Jubilee was convinced she saw
a rueful twitch at the corners of his mouth; *almost* a smile, as though he
was pleased by her concern. That surprised her a lot--especially
considering the sudden guilt she felt. Never before had she considered that
his own claws might cause him pain
or for that matter, that he could even
"Im sorry I asked you to," she mumbled, unable to meet his eyes.
He rolled his shoulders in a thoughtful shrug, his interest shifting back
to the darkness beyond the window panes. It was as if hed done nothing
more than give her the time of day.
"Its good, sometimes
finding out something about people."
Jubilee wasnt quite sure what he meant by that--but she liked what it
meant to her.
Accepting that she had been dismissed, her head spinning with new thoughts,
she turned to go back the way she had come; back toward her room. If the
rest of the gang was still there, she had some ideas to sort out with Rogue.
"Pleasant dreams," she heard Logan murmur over his shoulder.
There was a certain grim irony in his voice. Pleasant dreams after seeing a
man grow deadly metal claws out of his hands? Yet that was more than
possible, because now Jubilee understood the gentle monster who stalked the
darkened hallways of her home. Now she knew she was safer for his
presence--and that was pleasant indeed.
On Tuesday, Cyclops caught Logan as he was heading up the stairs toward
"Hey. That trip to the hardware store thats been on the to-do list?"
Frozen in mid-stride, Logan warily frowned down over the banister at
"Well, we need to go ahead and get it done. Theres trouble with a faucet
in one of the bathrooms."
With a resigned sigh, Logan trudged back down the stairs. Shopping for
plumbing fixtures with Summers was *not* his idea of a good time--but this
was part of his job at the school. Manual labor was a lot more productive
than trying to pound book-learning into teenagers, as far as he was concerned.
"This better not take all day, Scooter," he warned. "I got a hockey game to
In the hallway, Rogue and Jubilee were conversing in hushed, giggly tones.
They fell silent as Logan and Summers passed them--both girls smiling a
little too innocently. Logan guessed that somebody was going to find an
unpleasant surprise waiting for them somewhere. Fortunately, if Rogue was
involved, it wouldnt be him
but he pitied the unknown victim. He knew
from personal experience that Jubilee was a terror.
Yet not always, apparently.
Since Friday night, Logan had been thinking a great deal about his
encounter with Jubilation Lee. Although he kept it to himself, that
curiously intimate contact had affected him.
She had wanted to see, to *touch* his claws. That was extraordinary. The
only other person who ever asked to look at them was Jean, and that was
purely for medical reasons. He couldnt figure out Jubilees motive. Was it
curiosity? That seemed to be the only answer, but somehow he felt there was
much more underlying their cautious exchange--on her part and, truth be
told, on his.
He wasnt even sure why he had indulged her. Maybe at the time he simply
wanted to scare her away, to be left alone with the bitter aftertaste of
but no, that wasnt it. The truth was that somehow, it
*mattered* to him that she had approached him. She was lying when she said
she wasnt afraid of him; he had smelled her fear. Maybe he had wanted to
know if she was willing to confront that fear, and overcome it.
She surprised him by doing exactly that.
The claws hurt, but there was more pain in being feared by those he didnt
*want* to fear him. If Jubilee had finally accepted him as he was, then the
demonstration was worthwhile.
Especially if her nefarious super-glue antics would stop now.
The outing to the hardware store was as tedious as Logan expected, and it
took entirely too long. Summers dawdled hopelessly over brass fittings and
ceramic faucet knobs, until Logan was convinced he was doing it on purpose.
Not even *he* could have such an excruciatingly minute interest in nuts and
By the time they got back to the school, Logan was twenty minutes late for
the start of his hockey game on television. He slammed the door of the
black SUV and turned to go inside, but Summers trotted after him, dropping
a hand on his shoulder. "Wait a minute."
Logan turned, automatically scenting the air for any sign of danger that
Summers may have detected--but there was no alarm in the younger mans
face. Concern, yes
but not alarm.
Summers huffed a sigh. "Look, Im not supposed to say this, but
make sure. So when you go in there
" He suddenly poked a finger at Logans
chest. "*Dont* pull the claws."
Baffled, Logan scowled at him. "Scuse me?"
"Never mind." With an air of determination, Summers turned to unload the
SUV. Logan stared at him for a moment, then shook his head in consternation
and left him to it. Forget the screws theyd just bought at the store--ol
One-Eye needed to tighten the screws in his brain.
As for himself, Logan felt he had done his share for the day. He thoroughly
intended to settle in and enjoy what was left of the hockey game, and to
that end, he headed inside.
The utter silence that confronted him within the mansion was disturbing, at
This was the late afternoon at a school. There should have been noisy kids
scattering in every direction at just about that hour, but instead
nothing. Logan frowned grimly and stalked down the hall, listening and
sniffing for signs of life.
*Dont pull the claws,* Scooter had said. He obviously knew something was
up, and furthermore, there were no smells that shouldnt have been there.
Alright, so there was no danger--but that didnt make Logan like the
mystery any better. In his experience, nothing that needed figuring out had
ever led to any good.
At last detecting familiar smells from the TV room, he edged to the doorway
and cautiously reached for the light switch.
Logan flinched back as though hed been shot--though the claws,
fortunately, stayed put.
Staff and students alike stood gathered in that room, looking at him with
smiling, expectant faces. The walls and ceiling were festooned with red and
black balloons and streamers--colors to match the uniforms of the X-Men. An
enormous cake took up most of the table, and on the far wall hung a banner
which read: *Happy Birthday Logan*.
Logan drew a breath and stepped further into the room, looking around at
the gathered children and adults. He suddenly realized that they were
waiting for him to say something--or possibly to *do* something, in the
case of a few younger kids who were nervously eyeing his hands. Either way,
the silence was going to get awkward if it went on for much longer.
"I," he began rather unintelligently, then paused and blinked. "No ones
ever." Yet still something felt stuck in his throat--and his eyes itched
somewhat, as well. He cleared his throat and blinked again.
It was Rogue who rescued him, stepping forward with a knowing chuckle to
throw her arms around his ribs. "Happy birthday, Logan."
Of course. All of this *would* have been her idea.
Bewildered by unfamiliar feelings, Logan carefully put his arms around her
and returned the hug, closing his eyes for a moment. A very *brief* moment,
because of the odd feeling that lurked about his eyes--a warm dampness that
threatened to spill over, if he didnt blink it away.
When he realized what was coming next, one thought did manage to distract
him from his impending danger of showing sentiment.
*Dont sing, dont sing, dont sing
*"Happy birthday to you
As Logan rolled his eyes, he felt the mist in them clear away, like rain
clouds before the sun. Bearing with mild chagrin the only slightly
dischordant serenade, he shook his head in wry humor at his friends--and at
The gifts were few and simple, and for that, Logan was relieved. The
teachers, and apparently even some of the kids, had chipped in to buy a few
items of clothing--which he had to admit was not a bad idea, since most of
his clothes *had* seen better days. It was his guess that Rogue or possibly
even Jean had picked out the jeans and shirts.
Of course, there were a few smaller, more personal gifts. Rogue presented
him with a new pair of leather work gloves; when they spent time together,
he often quietly insisted that he wear gloves instead of her, and she had
noticed how worn and ragged his old gloves were. He smiled without comment
as he fingered the small slits between the knuckles, neat and precise and
undoubtedly stitched by Rogues own hand, that were meant to accommodate
Professor Xavier discreetly passed him a small but very fine bottle of
scotch--with the strict proviso that it was only to be consumed in small
quantities, and *never* shared with anyone under the age of twenty-five.
But then, Logan wasnt about to share it in the first place, so that was
hardly a problem.
Just when he thought the surprises were over, Jubilee came up to him,
producing from behind her back a rectangular package wrapped in loudly
colored foil paper.
"Its not really a birthday present. Just something I owe you."
Eyeing her warily, Logan took the package and gave it a cautious shake. It
didnt explode, and there was no sign of anything alive inside, but he was
still reluctant to open it. Knowing Jubilee, he was entirely unsure of just
what might pop out. Yet something about her smile encouraged him, so he
braced himself and tore away the paper.
It was a box of cigars. Fairly expensive ones, at that--and definitely
*not* made of chocolate.
Logan lowered his brow and frowned at Jubilee. "Who wouldve sold these
things to a kid like you?"
Jubilee flushed slightly and glanced over at Summers, who had joined the
party at length and with obvious reluctance. He shook his head violently at
her and mouthed something, but she gave him a helpless shrug and turned
back to Logan.
Mister Summers helped me out there. But I paid for them myself."
Summers let out a hiss of breath and squirmed on the loveseat beside Jean,
who looked to be torn between hugging him and scolding him. Raising an
eyebrow, Logan gave him his most insolent grin, then favored Jubilee with a
much gentler smile. "Thanks, kid."
Jubilee shrugged again, glancing sweetly at him through her eyelashes. "So,
you think you could give back the chocolate ones now?"
Before Logan could answer, Rogue pushed her way to his side, pointing at
the cake on the table in front of them. "Ahright, if thats all out of the
way, its time for the birthday boy to cut the cake."
The impulse that came over Logan then was positively mischievous. Coming as
close as he could to a look of total innocence, he started to raise his fist.
"Not that way, ya big ox!" Rogue protested, her gloved fingers seizing his
wrist--but he heard the quiver of suppressed laughter in her voice, because
she knew he was only playing with her. She let go of his hand and picked up
the serving knife that lay beside the cake. "Use this."
"He wont even know which end to use," Summers remarked, visibly resisting
a smirk, and took an elbow in the ribs from Jeans direction.
In present company, and to a chorus of giggles, Logan settled for shooting
Summers a "loser" gesture with finger and thumb before taking the knife
from Rogue and doing the honors.
Within minutes, the kids were all well on their way to an icing-induced
sugar high. Not particularly one for sweet foods, Logan picked slowly at a
small piece of the chocolate cake, contemplation setting in now that the
attention was on the food instead of him.
Someone had put some music on the stereo, and Peter Rasputin had moved the
table--clearing floor space for *dancing*, of all things. Logan was
thoroughly determined to remain a spectator.
When Rogue left his side to dance with Bobby, Logan took the opportunity to
move down to the end of the couch where Xavier sat, watching the activity
with quiet satisfaction. His air of authority and grace was somewhat
undercut by the styrofoam plate of cake balanced precariously on the arm of
his wheelchair, the unnoticed fleck of icing stuck to his upper lip--and in
particular, the conical, tasseled party hat perched on top of his head. It
was always something of a shock to see the man in so relaxed and casual a
light, even though he greeted each birthday with almost as much enthusiasm
as the children.
At Logans approach, the Professor turned, smiling in fond regard. Logan
half-smiled in return, then blinked and sobered.
"So why today?"
The significance of the date was not lost upon him. Memories of what had
happened a year before were the reason his nightmares had assaulted him
with a vengeance of late. Part of him even wondered if this entire little
display wasnt just a convenient distraction for the kids, something to
stave off their own memories of the fear and hurt they had suffered when
But Xavier smiled thoughtfully. "I believe its something to do with new
beginnings, my friend."
An image flashed through Logans mind: a dogtag with a broken chain, lying
abandoned in the snow. He wasnt sure whether it was a thought of his own,
or perhaps a telepathic prompt from Xavier, but that didnt matter. He
One year ago, William Stryker had tried, and failed, to bring about a day
of destruction. Logan had made a choice that day, had buried his past in
Strykers watery grave
but it still haunted him. Now, today, he had a
chance to make another choice. He could lay the ghosts to rest; he could
take that day as his own, just as he had taken the animal name which
Stryker had given him. Already he had come so far in building a new life
for himself--a life he now knew these people had embraced as part of their
He was the Wolverine. The X-Men were his family.
And today was his first birthday.
Breathless with laughter, Rogue spun away from Bobby and dropped onto the
couch beside Logan, giving his arm a tug. "Come dance with me, sugah."
Logan rolled his eyes and winced. "I dont dance."
"Then Ill teach you!" Rogue replied brightly, pulling a little harder.
Logan shot Xavier a pained look, but in response he received only a chuckle
and a dismissive gesture. Heaving a sigh, he got up and let Rogue tow him
off across the floor.
It was going to take him until his *next* birthday just to live this one down.
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