>Title: Loginc and Reasoning
>Series: Untitled as of now
>Summary: A darker look at Rogue's thougths post-SOL.
>Dedication: For Caroline and Laeto who wanted more DarkRogue stories.
> The cautious glances, the hateful stares and nervousness exist only
>when I am around. Caution for my skin is deadly. Hate for the part
>of my psyche that belongs to a long established enemy. Nervousness
>for the larger piece of the unpredictable man/beast living in my head.
> They resent me, and I hate them for it. They treat me as if
>I am a parasite and each of them a potential host. Erik was right.
>There in no land of tolerance. Especially not here, in this mansion
>where equality and acceptance are stressed. The people here are both
>equitable and accepting, but not tolerant. Never confuse the three,
>it is a deadly error.
> Equality can get you hurt, when you discover it is nothing but
>an illusion. Acceptance can get you killed when you accept the fact
>that you have deadly adversaries, you may as well put a down payment
>on a casket. Tolerance, will allow you to use both devices you your
>advantage, it allows you to fully understand your opponent and
>measure their ability. You accept the fact that they are not your
>equals, and a good fighter will exploit that.
> Charles does not understand this and over the years he has gone
>from being naive to being a fool. And I cannot stay her any longer.
>Being around his ideals is sickening. Seeing the X-Men and the
>resident children emulate that believe brings forth the rage I
>inherited from Erik and Logan.
> Logan believes the X-Men's "attack only if provoked" mentality
>will get me killed one day. I have to say, I second that opining.
>Erik feels Charles is wasting his time on a Utopian idea that will
>never be more than that, an idea.
> Both men are right in their own ways. Were you to ask me, my
>views are fairly similar. The X-Men can get you killed, my own
>experience can attest to that. I can state with confidence that had
>it not been for Logan, I would be dead. Scott wouldn't have gone up
>there, nor Jean, nor Storm. Excuse me if I hold that against them.
> The point is not that the X-Men are cowardly, it's the fact that
>they fight for all the wrong reasons that pisses me off. Sacrificing
>one, to save everybody and all that. Maybe I'm selfish but I can't
>agree with their ideals. How do you ever know for sure that the one
>life you let slip away wasn't the most important one? How can you
>say that saving more people is the higher objective? How do you
>justify what is in fact associated murder?
> Logically and statistically you have a much better chance at
>saving one person, than in saving hundreds or thousands. It's not
>cowardly to aim for the logical answer. Better than overestimating
>your own power and abilities and in the end loosing everything,
>including the one life you could have saved.
> Erik, may be a little extreme in his ideals, but at least he's a
>realist. I understand him better than even Charles does. His
>memories are now equal to mine. I have accepted the fact that he
>tried to kill me. But most importantly, we can tolerate each other.
>That's something the X-Men and I will never have.
>"Logan, this is Charles Xavier. Rogue has vanished."
>"I fear she has gone to Erik's."
>To be Continued...........
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