It would not be wrong to call me a thelemite. I've been loosely
progressing along the Great Work for 16 years. I've studied Kraig's
version of kabbalistic magick, neo paganism, new age philosophies,
gnosticism, esoteric christianity, various pantheons, and was heavily
studying MITP performing liber samekh when it lead me to become a fundy
christian for a couple years (YHShVH in Tiphareth, Christ as
hyperstatic union required for crossing the abyss, went to church, had
a religious experience, fell out when doctrine and dogma got in the way
of relationship with God).
Having integrated that experience, I returned to cermeonial magick a
few months ago, and established direct contact with my HGA, and things
are progressing nicely. Most of my ceremonial magick rituals tend to
follow the LBRP, invocation/evocation, meditation/charge, license to
depart, LBRP model. I'm moving from old aeon rituals to new aeon
rituals as instructed by my HGA, as I gain the understanding to utilize
I only met my HGA a couple months ago, and have been referring to him
as "Adonai." He revealed to me the "spirit guides" and other forms he
had assumed throughout my previous Work, prior to just being the HGA
plain and simple. My favorite was when he showed me what he was up to
when I had my pentecostal-holy spirit encounter. Fun stuff.
So I've been trying to "wrestle" out his name, and yesterday I got a
name for him, I think, but I don't know if I heard it properly. I
researched it on the web, and to my horror, the name is very, very
popular among role players for their characters. There is no readily-
available information on any esoteric meanings behind the name. Is
there a way to verify the name, to make sure I heard it correctly? Is
there a way to veriy that I have found my HGA and not some wandering
Nephesh (per Bill Heidrick's abramelin ramble) that is enjoying a prank
at my expense?
I've roleplayed the great work for long enough, and don't have any
desire to waste any more time.