I am "new" to the group and turned 30 years of age on February 19...and I
stutter. (Ugh...I am not used to stating the fact that I stutter...but,
it's time to be more open about it even though I have been more open about
it at times in the past.)
Anyway, I have had speech therapy every single year of my life from age
three to twenty-one, except for age fifteen or so. But, I had other sort of
therapy around that time. Throughout all my years of therapy, I have
learned various techniques and methods to "control" the stuttering pattern.
(I still have blocks occasionally...and according to other people, I still
stutter, duh! I know I do and I have become more self-conscious about this
"weakness" of mine.)
Recently, numerous "friends" of mine have mentioned to me about the
"SpeechEasy" device and most of those times I have just shrugged it off.
However, now, I do think is the time to really try to conquer the stutter.
I have been through hell with it and I've been made fun of, picked on,
teased, etc. I have even been called retarded--which I am DEFINITELY not!
I am sure that many of you can relate to where I am coming from in regards
to the struggle of stuttering. It isn't easy!
A friend recently told me I use my stutter as a crutch so I won't have to do
certain things and that I'm "special"....which I didn't like to hear. But,
probably, I have subconsciously used the stutter as a crutch. This friend
also has asked me if I ever have had ANY therapy whatsoever. I said yes.
She told me that she guessed it didn't WORK since I still stutter. The
nerve of her saying that! But, that is how life is and can be rather
But, the fuel of the rage which I sometimes feel when my stutter is under
attack has now made me more aware of it and the effect it can have on
others. I have been thinking. So now, I am interested in attaining better
fluency in my speech and in better self-therapy as well as a support group.
(I have been a part of various online stuttering support groups and just
joined a few more recently. However, I am also interested in a stuttering
support group in my area of North Carolina so I can physically meet other
stutterers. No luck as of yet. Oh well.)
I am glad now I can become more open about this area (stuttering) in my life
and pray that I can be able to conquer some more of the battle so I can live
a more PRODUCTIVE life!
Thanks for hearing me out. Have a good day.
PS--I still am in contact with my speech therapist whom I had in high
school....but, we don't mention my stutter that much in our conversations.
Also, a Christian Singles Pastor whom I know is a "former" stutterer and I
have been in contact with him lately concerning my stutter. So, I do have
resources. All I need to do now is to use them.