> I don't know if I got this across or not, but seeing St John's
> struggles also helped me see my own in a different light. Even now,
> as I write, the idea of attachment (which is a new word in this
> telling) seems right and I will ponder that a bit more as well.
> ...end quote...
> I hope you find the book equally as helpful.
Thank you, Father, for your impressions. I'm finding it difficult to
put the book down.
Perhaps there are some who will be scandalized by its content, but
hagiographies are often not able (nor meant) to be clear about the
internal struggles that saints face. As the author notes, certain
views/traits of a saint may, in other times, be downplayed due to their
"political incorrectness", and the saint cast in different roles for
different purposes. I see more clearly how I, myself, have been guilty
of this. Seeing this small glimpse of St. John as a *Russian* among
other Russians, in a time of political and social turmoil, is very
eye-opening (and edifying) for me as an American convert. I thank God
(and St. John) that he was such a prolific---and honest---diarist.
Please forgive my own disjointedness---I'm still digesting all of this!