Dear Tab, First of all, thanks for pointing to the wonderful online
book resource. It is very very good. Now, as far as your feeling
guilty about "undermining the mediative process" by noticing you have
been distracted by one thing or another, please stop feeling guilt or
upset, or anything negative. You should be feeling good about it. It
means that you have been the Witness to your inappropriate
reactivities, and this awareness is the exact thing that leads to
liberation from them. So when you see that you have been distracted
or are acting stupid, or anything like that, just say "Oh well!" and
go back to your meditation. No more judging, comparing, commenting.
Just "Oh well" and back to witnessing your meditation. This method
should become more and more a part of you "real life" as well.
Whenever you Witness yourself in negativity, just say "Oh well", and
do those things, like body awareness, breathing techniques, mantra, or
whatever you have found helps bring you to a calm meditative state.
Please start realizing that there are no "bad" meditation sessions,
and often the ones you thought were bad or disappointing are the
ones we learn the most from. I hope this helps. So, when you Witness
yourself being distracted by "thirst, awareness of constrictive
clothing or a hangnail and other issues", smile - you are getting
more and more at one with your Witness and that is one of the
greatest benefits you can gain from meditation.
--- In meditationsocietyofamerica@y..., tabularosa <no_reply@y...>
> Bob, there have been quite a few books made available online
> on meditation that I just wanted to call to your attention, in case
> you were not aware of them.
> More specifically those books listed on March 4th, 5th and 8th.
> I have noticed recently when I try to become more self aware by
> tuning out the world, right as I implement the meditative process,
> body is sending me signals such as thirst, awareness of
> clothing or a hangnail and other issues that I had overlooked when
> was busy with day to day activities. Sometimes, I allow it to
> such a distraction that I am drawn away from the tranquility I had
> hoped to achieve. Then I feel quilty to have fallen prey to this
> obvious ploy at undermining the mediative process. I sabotage my
> desires of enhancement. What self discipline can I draw upon to
> overcome this obstacle? I have good intentions but can't always
> follow through with them.