A common phase meditators go through is that when the light
of introspection is pointed to the subconscious, and the dark
negative stuff there is revealed, the beginner meditator is
often horrified at what they see. Or at least embarrassed in
front of their own eyes. It can be very upsetting when you see
how foolish/selfish/mean/etc. we have been acting, and a very
common result is a negative self image. Please be quick to
forgive yourself your transgressions/sins/stupidity/etc. There
is no need to suffer further from your negative habits, and you
need now only be positive. Your karma has and will work itself
out as it may, but it is squandering good energy after bad to be
down on yourself, or sad about what you have seen. Love yourself.
Feel and know that you have simply learned a lesson and the
most positive thing you have learned is to not repeat the
negative. Sulking/depression/etc. is furthering the problem.
Be gentle with everyone, starting with yourself. You are
purging of all that causes your suffering and can now start
to function free of the obstacles that your inappropriate
(takes your peace away) actions caused.
It is time to live happily now and ever after.