"hitedevin88" <hitedevin88@...> wrote:
> i have been meditating for 2 days. 20 minutes a day.
> listening to music, relaxing music.
> i feel the breath getting shorter and shorter when im doing it.
> and i had a little flash of white light. which im not sure about, the lights were off. and eyes were closed.
> also. does this get easier the more you do it? i havent felt any tension release while doing it. and a video i watched says you start to feel iching sensations or pain, which i have felt neither.
> can anyone explain a little bit of this to me?
There is no doubt that you will be experiencing many
new and varied things as you continue to meditate. As
was mentioned in another post, sometimes music can be
a help in getting into a meditative mode, but it can
also be a distraction. Here's an article that I think
originally appeared in our newsletter, The Inner Traveler.
I think its main idea is that we need to keep focused.
I hope the concepts it shares will be beneficial towards
that (wonder-full) end (and beginning).
Pleasant Meditation Distraction Traps
The more you meditate, the more meditation can
become the most interesting thing you ever and
never imagined. This is because your mind will
present incredible things to distract you in its
effort to remain your master, and you its slave.
There is a scientific reality and perspective
that states that we are not what our limited
senses perceive. For instance, we aren't "really"
solid. It just seems that way because that's the
way our eyes work. We are atomic and pre-atomic
energy in motion. If we had Electron Microscope
and Hubbell Telescope quality vision, it would
be apparent that we are infinite in nature and
taking part in a never-ending interaction with
everything everywhere. We are not lone drops apart
from the ocean, but rather a part of the ocean.
So, it seems we are hard wired, or were wired
early in life, to buy into an illusionary perception
of our environment. Our mind's impressions have
completely dominated our view of who we are, and
what reality is. And so, our initial attempts at
meditation can by quite disappointing, and it
may seem that all we can do is react in habitual
fashion, and are unable to achieve a consistent
focus on what wee intend to pay attention to.
Initially, your mind may be able to distract you
by something as simple as an itch, a memory, a
feeling of happiness, etc. But as you get steadier
in your meditation, and don't react to your
sense perceptions, memories, emotions, and so
on, your mind will loose its grip, and reality
will present itself. And you will feel, see, and
know the awe of transcendent in-sight. Often,
your mind will then try to distract you, and
regain the mastery over you, by letting you see
more and more spectacular visions and have more
and more seemingly evolving understandings. That
awareness within, that is ever-present, and
silently perceives all the changes your mind,
body, and emotions put you through is your
inner Witness, and that is your Real Self. Your
mind's game plan is to keep you in a state of
"Gee Whiz!!!" and not recognize what is ever
before you, and that is your oneness with your
Witness and its oneness with all and everything.
That Realization comes from Grace and Grace
alone. It is not a byproduct of meditation, but
there may be no better way to remove the
obstacles that delay this awakening than
meditation. So, enjoy the inner and outer light
shows, the arm (and even whole body) levitations,
and so on, but don't get caught in the "seeking
after more and more spectacular versions of them"
trap. The first two steps in meditation are
dispassion and discrimination. Seek what is
eternal, not transitory; the essence, not the
superficial. This is discrimination. And don't
get wound up with too much jubilation when you
have beautiful visions, or disappointment when
you don't. This is dispassion. Sit in meditation
without expectation. Simply Witness. When not
sitting in meditation, witness your life as an
ongoing meditation. Persevere. The universe and
its source and support will presently present
you with the ultimate present. And You will be
present. And you will live happily ever after.