"roninewbaby" <jayron22@...> wrote:
> I have two things of interest to throw out there.
> First, when I relax my eyes to an almost squint and daze out I can see
> what I can best describe as little swirls of light bouncing around. Am
> I seeing energy?
> When I get real quiet, usually during meditation, I hear a loud
> pulsating noice.What is this? Should I focus in on this noice or my
What you are experiencing is common to those who
meditate as they become free from the constraints
of the 5 senses and start to experience the 3rd
eye and inner ear senses and other "Higher Body"
sensational sensations. I consider this a "not
essential for spiritual understanding", but a very
pleasant, interesting, informative and encouraging
experience. This is the type thing that makes having
others to share your experiences with a valuable
resource. Until you personally find this person or
group, please know that this is what this forum is
aimed at providing. I also want to repeat this
(sort of) "warning" that I think first appeared
in our newsletter, The Inner Traveler. Enjoy!
Pleasant Meditation Distraction Traps
The more you meditate, the more meditation can
become the most interesting thing you ever and
never imagined. This is because your mind will
present incredible things to distract you in its
effort to remain your master, and you its slave.
There is a scientific reality and perspective
that states that we are not what our limited senses
perceive. For instance, we aren't "really" solid.
It just seems that way because that's the way our
eyes work. We are atomic and pre-atomic energy in
motion. If we had Electron Microscope and Hubbell
Telescope quality vision, it would be apparent that
we are infinite in nature and taking part in a
never-ending interaction with everything everywhere.
We are not lone drops apart from the ocean, but
rather a part of the ocean. So, it seems we are hard
wired, or were wired early in life, to buy into an
illusionary perception of our environment. Our mind's
impressions have completely dominated our view of
who we are, and what reality is. And so, our initial
attempts at meditation can by quite disappointing,
and it may seem that all we can do is react in
habitual fashion, and are unable to achieve a consistent
focus on what we intend to pay attention to. Initially,
your mind may be able to distract you by something
as simple as an itch, a memory, a feeling of happiness,
etc. But as you get steadier in your meditation,
and don't react to your sense perceptions, memories,
emotions, and so on, your mind will loose its grip,
and reality will present itself. And you will feel,
see, and know the awe of transcendent in-sight. Often,
your mind will then try to distract you, and regain
the mastery over you, by letting you see more and
more spectacular visions and have more and more
seemingly evolving understandings. That awareness
within, that is ever-present, and silently perceives
all the changes your mind, body, and emotions put
you through is your inner Witness, and that is your
Real Self. Your mind's game plan is to keep you in
a state of "Gee Whiz!!!" and not recognize what is
ever before you, and that is your oneness with your
Witness and its oneness with all and everything.
That Realization comes from Grace and Grace alone.
It is not a byproduct of meditation, but there may
be no better way to remove the obstacles that delay
this awakening than meditation. So, enjoy the inner
and outer light shows, the unblocked by the limits
of our ears awesome sounds of the universe, and other
higher experiences, but don't get caught in the
"seeking after more and more spectacular versions
of them" trap. The first two steps in meditation
are dispassion and discrimination. Seek what is
eternal, not transitory; the essence, not the
superficial. This is discrimination. And don't get
wound up with too much jubilation when you have
beautiful visions, or disappointment when you don't.
This is dispassion. Sit in meditation without
expectation. Simply Witness. When not sitting in
meditation, witness your life as an ongoing meditation.
Persevere. The universe and its source and support
will presently present you with the ultimate present.
And You will be present. And you will live happily