I believe this is what is meant by "surrender." And, yes, it is strange--to our normal minds. But it is, I venture to say, much closer to truly being connected--to that which we can't name or coceptualize--or even know! Are we really ready and willing to do this? I wonder.
And I sure hope so.
Interesting. For those of us who say we want to be 'enlightened'--yet still want to remain in control, and to direct the higher energies we tap into. Interesting.
Thanks for sharing your observations/insights.I have been experiencing similar ones in my meditation. Today, as I efforted at going in deeper, and was becoming enmeshed in my own thoughts, I found myself just letting go, doing nothing, just allowing my thoughts to go, not looking for or expecting anything--and I, too, found myself going deeper. But, as you said, I had to (also) give up my right/desire to glean something from this. I had to just sit, not knowing, not understanding, no agenda. And, upon coming out, I still had no direction or insight. I do believe that, today, I was experiencing something different.
No agenda meditation--either going in, during, or coming out. Now, what do you make of that???