Journal Entry - tosime
Date: October 03
Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Time: 09:20 a.m.
Duration: 49 minutes (open)
Posture: Seated on chair
Body: Eyes closed,
- tongue tip to pallet,
- hands on knees-index finger touching thumb.
Room Condition: Darkened room
- Two candles
- Essential Oil - (Bergamot+water on burner)
Pre-session: Sip of water
- full body stretch (3 times).
Mind Chatter: Medium - high.
Waves of bliss: one - slight.
Experience: Unusual Session. Very odd feelings and experiences.
Result: Some things to resolve.
Started slightly differently today. Normally I start by simply trying to
relax and letting my mind do whatever it wants. I know from experience that
I should not attempt to take control until I have reached a certain level of
relaxation. Usually I enjoy the "show" my mind presents to me while I wait
for the best time to take control.
Today I focused on the emerging inner sounds. As I relaxed, I focused on the
first inner sound. I noted its character and location. Then as successive
sounds emerged I sort of tracked them. For instance I would say, that is a
group of soft sounds coming from the back, lower, right part of my brain.
Doing this had an unusual effect. It appeared to disrupt the normal flow of
my meditation. The session felt more like being conscious during sleep than
a meditation. Went through a stream of images and incidents and situations.
It felt a little disturbing. I wondered how I could return to my normal
Instantly I was switched to what my normal meditation session should have
been, at the point I normally would have reached. This felt very odd. I
sensed that my normal meditation was taking place in another part of my mind
and I was switched to that place.
As I tried to make sense of all this I was "given" a small wave of bliss
that seemed to say don't worry, its all part of the greater process. What
felt disturbing for me was that it did not seem to matter what I did. I felt
something greater was in control and all I could do was become more aware of
The whole experience seemed to point to a dreaming process that takes place
while you meditate. While your path in normal meditation is conscious
control, the dream process sometimes interferes with images. However, both
processes appear to be going on simultaneously and you can switch between
them. It is all very odd. So much more seems to be happening than I