Journal Entry - tosime
Date: October 01
Type: Meditation on inner sounds (with earplugs)
Time: 08:55 a.m.
Duration: 57 minutes (open)
Posture: Seated on chair
Body: Eyes closed,
- tongue tip to pallet,
- hands on knees-index finger touching thumb.
Room Condition: Darkened room
- Two candles
- Essential Oil - (Bergamot+water on burner)
Pre-session: Sip of water
- full body stretch (3 times).
Mind Chatter: Low.
Waves of bliss: None.
Experience: Excellent Session. Good progress and development.
Result: Felt like a two hour session.
As I drifted through the first stage of my meditation I felt myself passing
the 3 to 5 key issues that are occupying my subconscious mind. I could sense
my mind still working on each issue and saw various interim solutions. I
felt like I was floating past them. It gave me a good sense of my inner self
being separate from my perceived problems.
Still exploring how to reach deeper levels of meditation via deeper levels
of physical relaxation accompanied by sharper levels of mental focus.
Started sensing for the most physically prominent part of my body (i.e. my
left, middle back). I took my attention there then freed the signal from
that part of my body. Felt a sensation of release, then felt no sensation
from that part of my body. I went slightly deeper into the meditation but my
mind became sharper as I then had to sense the next most prominent physical
sensation. This activity diverts your mind from mind chatter. It could be
the absence of mind chatter that helps the meditation go deeper - I will
Became more sensitive to various body processes. Felt a slight muscle twinge
in my ribcage and felt the flow of signals to somewhere in my right brain.
Towards the end of the session I was ready to open my eyes. I hesitated and
felt the rush of inner sounds I normally have when my eyes open. This led me
to sense that a large part of what we see is processed rather than seen. My
mind had started the processing even before it got the light signals. When I
opened my eyes, the objects on my meditation table appeared more detailed as
if my focusing had sharpened. I had a sense that this is what artists see
and the beauty of objects is much stronger for them.
Very low mind chatter. Spent long periods without thoughts using my inner
sounds as a support.
Still need to develop the ability of not reacting to new inner sounds as
they come and go. I sense that my reaction of surprise kills some of the
sounds or prevents them from progressing normally. The whole inner sounds
process is very delicate and very sensitive. The slightest thought has a
Need to develop my ability to anticipate new sounds. I find that in the
right frame of mind, I can sense when a new sound will start well before it
starts. The problem is that this ability has no indicators or manipulators.
I have no sense or feeling of it being present. It is like some types of
intuition or creative insights - it just happens.
Overall, an excellent session. Felt like I made good progress. Was surprised
to find I only spent 57 minutes when it felt like 2 hours or more.