No I am not Buddhist but I am really working on the non-attachment thing and
coming along very well except with books - which I just seem to keep buying!
Having to give them back to the library is just too hard...
I'm afraid my natural farm is not coming along too quickly but I am very
stubborn... This drought in Australia must break sometime... or maybe not.
I met the neighbour of our natural faming block last week and she told me
how 25 years ago it was lush green grass almost all year. So much water and
wonderful fertility. Now most of the land is almost dust... 99.9% of the
seeds I cast disappeared into the void but I am hopeful that if we get a
period of rain that I will see a transformation. Probably dreaming. The
trees I have planted and am hand watering weekly are doing really well but
the intense summer heat has just started this week - 4 days over 40 degrees
C means plants and humans alike are struggling. Already had 2 bush fires in
our immediate region this year and
The school site is pretty much the same except concrete clay and even more
difficult to establish anything on. Seedballs and seed broadcasting a
disaster. Some would say I should give up - but I won't. I am taking my time
though (mainly because I don't have any left to commit to it).
I think I know what I need to do now and that is a combination of masses of
mulch and Jackie French's grove gardens (should be able to google that for
an article), which is very similar to natural farming but specific
recommendations for Australia's more southern regions like grouping trees
REALLY closely together which you couldn't do in a humid environment. I
believe I really need mulch to get started in this extreme environment (on
both sites) - but I don't have the money for any really - let alone the
amount I need so they will simply continue slowly.
I feel joy from the doing anyway and I just love being on the land so I am
trying to accept that it will all take some time. I'm learning about weeds
to eat and accepting that if I can't get a 'garden' happening that maybe
they will be part of my journey... luckily I am not reliant on the sites
for my livelihood or I would be a lot more sad right now. Although I am
doing a farmers market this weekend and hope to make a couple of hundred
dollars profit which would be nice (but doesn't buy much mulch at all!).
Once recommendation. If you like philosophising and looking for the ideal
life then I would recommend you read the Ringing Cedar series of books. Book
1 'Anastasia' is the most well known. It is life transforming - like the One
Straw Revolution. You can find details and order books here
] On Behalf Of Jakub Gawronski
Sent: Sunday, 25 January 2009 3:49 PM
Subject: [fukuoka_farming] Reply to Linda
Thank you for writing. What gives joy to me? I would say philosophizing,
looking for and seeming to find the ideal life. Thinking about what is the
ideal way of being. What can I do with that? Be a philosopher? Seems
useless. What can my ideas bring? Well, maybe my ideas aren't useless,
though I'm very attached to them.
Strange, attachment brings good feelings but it supposedly brings more pain
than benefit. Well, you're not buddhist, right? I have a very hard time with
the idea of non-attachment (buddhist). It's not a western idea so I guess
it's hard for us westerners to understand, at least for me. You see I'm
attached to certain ideas and beliefs and i think that's a result of
childhood experiences -- attaching to certain ideas because you had pleasant
associations with them and rejecting ones that you had unpleasant
associations with. We shape our lives around our attachments -- how shallow
is that? Yet we still achieve positive things.
If I were to throw my so-called 'beliefs' away I would have a very difficult
time, yet maybe if I persevered I would find something quite deep, I would
get a deeper understanding of life. But no, I take the easy route and
believe in things like reincarnation, I have to follow something, I'm just a
You know the japanese say "when you have a choice, take the hardest way",
now that's something. I think that's true because when you can't decide,
usually one of the choices may have a greater benefit but since it's harder
you equal it with the other one. So they say don't weigh in the hardship,
the struggle because struggle just strengthens you. That's very hard to
accept because I don't want to struggle my whole life! But maybe the more
you struggle now enriches your life later. You know, the buddhists say our
suffering comes from trying to run away from it. If we just accept our
suffering as part of ourselves maybe we'll stop suffering! After all, it is
part of us and we shouldn't reject part of ourselves, that's not loving
ourselves. Hmmm... sounds great, but how do we practice that? Hmm.. just
accept the way you are. You are made that way and it is God's (whatever God
is) work that made you, don't reject God's work.
Hmmm.. You know, i have social anxiety which makes it very hard to open
myself up to others. It's much easier over the internet, you don't have to
face the person, it's a smaller threat. I'm gonna go to the Buddhist
Recovery Network to talk to people going through similar situations. I don't
think people that haven't been through similar situations can really
understand what I'm going through. Wow, I've opened up a lot, hopefully
that's good. Thank you Linda. Oh, how did you do your Fukuoka garden? Please
let me know.
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