Sisyphus work (a variation) -- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=K5MdFdAe_JY
I've been using a voice software thingy off and on since the summer (sometimes it doesn't work). In any case, thank you for your concern. I don't know what this means -- " I will be mindful of your back pain with this thing ongoing even if you can't, I shall." Nonetheless, I'll extrapolate. I've been living in various amounts of physical pain for 12 years now, Dottie. Though my whole body is paralyzed, I can feel it. I've seen you use the word "excruciating" a lot on Facebook; as I've told you, that comes from the Latin for crucifixion. That's a dangerous word to play around with, especially if you use it in terms of spiritual development, which you do (I have references:)). Ultimately, spiritual development ought be a source of joy,
not pain, and if there is pain, it's nowhere near that of Christ's, imho.
In terms of being mindful while in pain, since you're "hip to" my Facebook comings and goings, I'm sure you've seen my note called "incandescent joy," dated August 24 of this year. If not, here it is –
" For weeks now I've suffered from intense muscle spasms. The pain has been so intense that I almost went to the ER. I have not felt pain like this since breaking my neck, which was uncomfortable. Anyway, after an emergency visit with my doctor, he agreed with me that if I'm not careful the tendons could rip from the bone, given what I described and what he felt after palpating my muscles. I am being careful. The only way I'm currently able to function is via acupuncture. Yesterday, I had one of the most incredible experiences of my life while being a pin cushion. I have not been able to weep for the past two weeks because, as I hope you know, weeping
tightens muscles. Given the amount of pain I've been in, I've desperately needed to weep. Anyway, while being covered in needles yesterday, my body relaxed for the first time in weeks. No pain. I sat there, covered in needles, and began to cry while meditating on the Lord's Prayer. I couldn't weep because I knew that this would cause my body to contract. I felt tears running down my face and the most indescribable opening, like the magic second when the bloom bursts and feels the sunlight lick deep roots. I've felt light before, even in a similar way, only this time I was quite unable to move an inch of body. With needles all over, calm tears down streaming, and light, I realized that this pain is my birthright. I will carry it with me from this moment forward with incandescent joy."
In terms of mindfulness while in pain, I'm still working with impoverished abused women for no money, giving poetry readings and giving all of my book sale profits
to a nonprofit organization, all the while working on a second book called "The Broken Axletree," which is a memoir about life before and after a spinal cord injury. Consequently, your claim that I need to be more mindful while in pain is a little unfounded, in my humble opinion. But that's just my opinion, my perspective, and, here's the hitch, I have references and objective proof to back me up. On to some other things…
1) I don't recall EVER saying that you were attacking Kim. Prove me wrong!
2) If I go around telling people that turtles live in trees, and my only support for this hypothesis is that "it is true," people might think I'm a little nuts.
3) this is an accusation = "[you are] always defending Kim from other people's opinions on work he is doing as if they are attacking him when they are not. Over and over again you do this here and elsewhere.
4) Similarly, this is an accusation = "YOU are using "Anthroposophy Tomorrow" as a sort of dream journal and throwing your weight around."
You cannot support your accusation other than to say "it is true." Honey, I can support my accusation, and, from a certain perspective, I already have. I didn't want to have to go here because I don't like throwing stones; however, "enough is enough," as you say in what I've called the "water boarding" message. Yes, we can keep going back and forth like this all day. I don't want to, I think it's quite silly, a waste of my time, energy, and goodwill. But I am willing to do it day after day and sit here until you do once thing -- start taking a little bit of responsibility for your words, suggesting I can't be mindful while in pain, and start backing up accusations, opinions, gut feelings, etc. etc.
Get that head out the hole, Dizzy --
Thomas Reid Ward a.k.a. the centaur a.k.a. Rita a.k.a. blunderbuss NOT "Kim Crusader" (which admittedly is my term).
I'm finished with all this; ti's just ugly, nothing pretty about it, silly Sisyphus work (as Kim said earlier). And sorry if you think I can't do anything without riding Kim's coattails; the metaphor is just so apropos.
Peace, y'all have fun.
Yahoo! Groups Links
<*> To visit your group on the web, go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/anthroposophy_tomorrow/
<*> Your email settings:
Individual Email | Traditional
<*> To change settings online go to: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/anthroposophy_tomorrow/join
(Yahoo! ID required)
<*> To change settings via email: email@example.com firstname.lastname@example.org
<*> To unsubscribe from this group, send an email to: email@example.com
<*> Your use of Yahoo! Groups is subject to: http://docs.yahoo.com/info/terms/