I never had a special connection to my parent's given name. It could have been any other name. When somebody calls you it is clear it is about you. That's it. But not with Sri Chinmoy!!! The other day when I struggled again to get out and cross the street at rush hour to get to the forest, I had a wonderful experience. Yes, I have always been struggling in the morning to go out early because of the traffic. To reach the forest I have to overcome an obstacle. It's a nice symbol actually. We have to overlook outer appearances if we want to reach our goals.
One morning I tried harder and as I stepped out the door to happily receive the morning noise from cars, busses, motorcycles, trucks etc. I took my bike, meditated a little for protection and was about to paddle away. But the very moment I looked up I saw a big truck passing by and on the white site of it there was written in big letters D-O-R-I-S. I couldn't believe my eyes! I never ever heard of any company with that name.
It is true that in a subtle way I did not cherish this name for there were so many memories connected with it that I would gladly like to forget, but I wholeheartedly accepted the fact that Sri Chinmoy did not give me a spiritual name. It is aspiration that leads to some higher goal, not a name as such.
It's a kind of miracle, that now I feel real joy when I hear, see or speak out my name. Though it is an ordinary name I feel honestly it has the vibration of a spiritual name. No memories, only joy!!!