Scott Kiloby, Jeff Belyea, and Pete are featured, along
with notice of PARADOXICA: Journal of Nondual Psychology.
I AM REALITY
Choiceless love is the touchstone of awareness. If it is not there, you are
merely interested - for some personal reasons.
-- NISARGADATTA MAHARAJ
I am non-dual reality.
I am not the relative self nor am I
other than the relative self.
There is nothing that I am not.
am the vast universe as well as the dust mite on your pillow.
I am self
I am form and formlessness.
I am time and
I am being and becoming.
I am path and no path,
choice and no choice.
I am the absolute and the relative.
I am no
thought and every thought, no view and every view, nothing and
I am every dualistic opposite.
I am One appearing as
Many have tried to pin me down to one or the other but there is
nothing that I am not.
When the mind tries to pin me down to one or the
other, it does so for personal reasons.
I am you and I am also the enemy
you reject in order to further your agenda.
I am exactly what you say I
am. But I am also what you believe I am not.
You try to grasp onto me by
placing me in boxes. But I am every box and I am that which contains all boxes.
I am also the grasping.
Some point to me very clearly but then try to
own me. I cannot be owned. I am none other than the one who is pointing, the
pointers themselves, and that which is being pointed to. I am also the one who
has never heard the word non-duality. I am also the lion in the jungle for
whom the concept non-duality has no meaning whatsoever. For the lion, reality
is not conceptual. It is about finding meat and shade. For the human, reality
becomes conceptual. I am both the actual and the conceptual.
I am no one.
I am someone. I am the very life that is being lived right now and the concepts
that arise to describe that life.
I am one life appearing in a billion
minds as a billion stories.
The moment you think you know what I am, you
dont. You cannot pin me down or keep me on your side. I am what you reject
also. I am the other side too. In that way, I am already free of conflict. I am
choiceless love. If you cannot see this, you are engaged for personal
By way of physical birth,
we enter a world as a
'separate' being. It takes a
while to recognize our "I am"
opposed to 'others".
Prior to that recognition,
we seem to live in
perceive as a benevolent world.
We're rocked, fed, keep
and dry...all out needs are met.
Life is good.
Then one day it
hits us (sometimes
in the form of a slap or harsh
words) that this world
entirely benevolent. We are taught
to watch out, think, plan
not to trust strangers...and
a host of other social
Many of these taught behaviors
are considered necessary
civil. But when we give up
the lightness of spirit and
benevolence of a
child, we are in danger of
never recovering that
again in our lifetime.
As Thoreau wrote, "Most men
live lives of quiet
Very often that takes the
of a consciousness
that puts on a persona that
smiles and says quietly,
not without a tinge of sadness,
to itself,"It's not that
Well, it's not that bad is
a long way from a vibrant
of joy and peace
of mind that we once knew
as a child.
news (the gospel) is
that vibrant fullness of joy
and peace of mind IS
as an adult. We CAN recover
the lightness of spirit, and
can enjoy it from the
knowledgeable perspective of
an adult - a fabulous
a fantastic, delightful, blissful
way to live.
peace, equanimity and
joy can run like living water
as an undercurrent of
Of course, life brings some
ups and downs, but once
the living water is always
there to quench our thirst
inner peace) and run as
an undercurrent - and the
emotional loop of the
downs is drastically reduced
in scope and duration.
experience...and then we
let go and move on with the flow,
fully and unconditionally
accepting what IS.
this requires another
birth. Jesus called it the
Birth of the Spirit. In
it's Awakening, Satori in Zen,
Samadhi in Hindu
Peak Experience and Self-Actualization
or Self-Realization in
This is The Mystic Path. It
culminates in a
'knowledge' (gnosis) of our pure
being, our place
(Source, Higher Self).
To experience this "birth"
profound grace, and it comes
as a most exquisite gift.
reports, and personal
experience, preparation for
receipt of this
Some come in utter despair
and give up
any hope of relief,
only to be gifted with this
enlightening rush of new
and an entirely new perspective
Some come through
profound faith, having their
hope and expectation
by authentic teachers who are
empowered to witness of
'event' from their own event.
Some hear the still small
in the midst of quiet meditation.
Some come to it in a
of these ways, and most probably
in other ways that I am
familiar with. Some have reported
this awakening (by any other
- like: nondual realization)
spontaneously - waiting for a
bus, watching a
up a newspaper. (Most of these
later tell, sometimes
of an interest in the Mystic Path
and of having spent some
with a guru or their teachings.)
If the thirst is there, the
will open up. If the experience
is familiar - all of us who
received this incredible grace
always find reference to
affirming and refreshing.
Enjoying an early morning
sending you Love, wishing
Recently, physicists, finally, saw an electron
and filmed it. Wow! But
when you watch it,
do you see an electron? Not really! You
only see an
electron represented with points
The representation is
remarkable enough, but is
not "the thing in itself." Each point of
in the picture lasted only an attosecond. To
give you an idea how
short of a time duration an
attosecond represents: there are more
in a second, than seconds had gone by since the
Big Bang. Such
things are beyond our understanding.
Representing an electron with light
representing a dog with a cat. We only
representations, which means, we don't understand
all. All we can do with reality is
sense it, feel it, be it. When we try to
we fall into an imagination swamp.
So, if seeing the film
below, you imagine that you see
an electron that's OK, and if you imagine
gazing into the tiny, tiny pupil of God's eye,
that, too, is
PARADOXICA: Journal of Nondual Psychology
The mission of this journal is to focus on the emerging area of nondual
psychology. Paradoxically, nondual psychology has been thriving for thousands of
years in the form of nondual approaches to awakening found in the heart of many
wisdom traditions and spiritual pathways including: Advaita, Zen, Hinduism,
Vedanta, Sufism, and various forms of Buddhism and Tantra. Transpersonal
psychology has been around since the late 1960s, but now nondual psychology is
now being recognized as a new force in the field of psychology and
psychotherapy. The journal emphasizes the transformational awakening process
found in many settings including: the individual lived experience, in a clinical
setting with a therapist or while participating in a group process, and a person
working with a teacher, guru, or spiritual guide. This journal is also open to a
deep engagement of the issues involved in facilitating nondual awakenings
clinically or as a guide with others.
Theoretical and phenomenological accounts will be accepted but the main
focus is on promoting transformational awakening as opposed to mere intellectual
speculation and mystification. Potential topic areas can range from:
awakening in the many nondual approaches such as Zen, Vedanta, Tantra, Advaita,
and Neo-Advaita, as well as in emerging Western approaches such as Almaass
Diamond approach or Wilbers Integral approach, as well as What is
enlightenment?, and evolutionary enlightenment. In addition, addressing the
many barriers to awakening is important including: unresolved shadow issues,
trauma, developmental issues, addictions and mental health issues, gender
issues, embodiment, and distinguishing between stage and state experiences of
This journal acknowledges that the awakening process is personal and
subjectively experienced and will therefore be open to first person accounts
written in a scholarly fashion. Clinical accounts and research articles are of