We ourselves are nothing but seeds grown within furrows
dug and watered by the attention of others. Assessing the
value of this
prepared plot of land that is our "given" world is
of primary spiritual
importance. The path towards the
Jewel-Net comes through preparing our own
ground, for the
furrows dug by the attention (our patterns of perception) in
many ways determine the seeds, or objects, that will appear.
should carefully prepare the patterns of our attention,
its mode of
organization, its blend of curves and grids,
randomness and order. The
ngHolos also emphasized the
supreme momentum of rootless flight, the nomadic
of weeds and wild poppies rather than the conscious
of philosophical or material ground. As a famous
slogan puts it, I become
mushroom, without root, my dharma
seeds scattered to the wind.
The soul weaves Indra's
Following the anatman doctrines of Buddhism, the Virtuals
insist that any fixed notion of self, even the Universal Self, is
illusion. At the same time, the ngHolos emphasize that
the self and the
world are constantly produced, that the
cosmos is both network and void. The
allusion here to the
Hindu myth of Indra's web, which the ngHolo's fused
image of the universe as pictured in the Avatamsaka
an infinitely nested and interrelated monadology in
which each singularity
reflects and embodies a boundless
The Virtuals did not deny the conventional self, but rather
filled it with space and emptiness. They call this "weaving the
Like a net, the conventional self or ego is something we
toss into the
infinite potential of reality in order to "catch" our
karmic desires, but it
too is composed of emptiness. If the
net is too thick and tightly-wound,
it will retain everything, for
there is no void to escape into, and
everything will become
very heavy and egocentric. If the net is too loose
bound, it will not functionlarger catches will break its
threads, and the smaller will escape.
We never stop weaving the net or trawling the world of
potential. Newly woven patterns catch new fish. Of course,
the net of
the self relates to the larger Jewel-Net. For the
ngHolos, the fractal
mandalas of the looms were the keys to
maintaining the conventional self
while weaving them into
this larger pattern of multiplicity.
The path is a
For the ngHolos, the notion of a spiritual "path" is a
misnomer, for spiritual reality is an endlessly proliferating
The path is a network of paths, a plateau. One can
not "follow" a network,
but must constantly probe it. Each
footprint is a node, which constantly
re-produces a number
of possible directions. Arrival and departure are
such, immediate and fragmentary spiritual tactics (including
these slogans) are prized more than grand strategic
attempt to lay out a well-organized hierarchy
of stages towards gnosis. Many
Virtual Masters achieved
for their diligence in pursuing one of the ngHolo's
cults, but for the specific topology of the plateaus they created as they moved
and frequently antagonistic fields of thought and
One of the ngHolo's countless
Here your eye
does not follow the warp of the land.
Here you follow
the warp of your own eye.
Art: Beyond Perception
Bob Graham painting, Ed Arons photography
Jan Sultan to
Thanks to Jerry! Huge, 1585 pages, article here:
[Get it before the Osho.org authorities forces
Jerry to remove it.]
Here is the discourse on meditation mentioned by Jerry,
nicely cleaned. It
is wonderful, specially the witnessing part! (Read post
Metta Zetty's reflection on
Life flows through each of us in a tidal wave of
expression. Contentment and satisfaction depend upon your
ability to trust this unfolding process.
Twelve Hours Hadewijch of Antwerp
The nature from which true love springs has twelve
which drive love out of herself and bring her back in herself.
when love comes back in herself she brings with her all
that makes the
unspeakable hours drive her out of herself: a
mind that seeks to know, a
heart full of desire, and a soul full
of love. And when love brings these
back she throws them
into the abyss of the mighty nature in which she was
and nurtured. Then the unspeakable hours enter nature
love has come to herself and rejoices in her
nature, below, above, and
around. And all those who stay
below this knowledge shudder at those who
have fallen into
the abyss and work there and live and die. For such is
command and her nature.
<snipped intensely beautiful 12 hours of
These are the twelve unspeakable hours of love. For in
of the twelve can love be understood, except by those I
those who have been thrown into the abyss of
love's mighty nature and those
who belong there, and they
believe in love more than they understand her.
Duff offers Maurice
Note on Self-Observation
One object of self-observation is to make us feel
our own existences.
We are carried along on the tide of life in a state of
We scarcely feel our own existences any more than does
But although we have become asleep and like machines,
there is one great difference. The machine cannot become
itself but we can.
Now unless we observe ourselves we will keep on doing
same thing over and over again without knowing that we are
Only a special memory can show us our
Some people still think that by self-observation they
once arrest or change what they observe. I assure you it is
But continual self-observation will make you gradually
and more aware that you always do this or always do that, or
react like this or like that. A special memory is
This is why the Work says that self-observation should
It is, as the Work teaches, letting a ray of
consciousness-namely, light-into yourself. It gradually
But it will take a long time before this ray of light
let in by
self-observation will lead to any inner change in yourself.
You must not think that simply because you observe for
moment that you are negative that will make it impossible for
be negative again.
Amongst many ideas that I have had, connected with
self-observation, one stands out in my memory.
I once said to Ouspensky something as follows: "Do you
think that the realization that we are always repeating our
behaviour, our emotions, our thoughts, which we take as
becomes distasteful only when we realize that we
are machines? Everyone
thinks he acts consciously at every
moment, but when he realizes it is the
machine, not him, that
causes him to act as he does, he dislikes the
I then said to him: "So Man has a fundamental hatred of
feeling he is a machine ?"
He said, in so many words: "That is exactly the point.
human being who takes himself as conscious in everything
he does or
thinks or feels is greatly shocked when he
realizes that he is nothing but a
machine that always
behaves automatically in the same way."
The Work teaches us that Man is not born a machine but
becomes one without knowing it. If he realizes that
does, says, thinks and feels is the work of a
machine in him, he will hate
being a machine and wish to be
something different. This gives him
But only self-observation over a long time begins to
that we do behave mechanically-as machines-and that we
doing this for years and years. It is then that
change is possible in a deep
sense because the self-love
weakens and so force is set free and not bound
up in the
Now observe your centres. Observe how you behave
mechanically in each centre. Again, observe your most
they dwell in the most mechanical parts of
centres. Notice them and keep on
noticing them. Gradually
something will alter.
Self-observation is the knife that begins to separate,
remove, what you take as you, from what is real.
Everything real leads to Real I: everything false leads
But it is the dislike of being mechanical that gives
to separate from the false.
The illusion that we are conscious cleverly prevents
keeps us asleep. The self-love will not permit us to realize
that we are not conscious. So we justify all our behaviour.
Psychological Commentaries on the Teachings of
and Ouspensky Pages 1395-1396
Any assertion of self is a movement away from ground
simple awareness, God, what ever you call that which you
are? Living in non-conclusion is inherently
conclusive---- The conclusion
being, "I exist as someone
who could choose anything to begin with". It
seems that to
move on at that point and live a life of non-conclusion is
(with a tip of the hat to Greg G.) .........Let me ask
you a funny
question: What makes you think you're Mark? Everything
you, including the present reading, thinking, sensation,
the whole of you?
You feel identified, right, at least to some
aspect of you? What if the
feeling of identification, the very
core of what suggests you are you,
(someone who needs to
even consider living non-conclusively), is simply
object arising in featureless awareness which you are? Right
now, in this experience. Lets really take a look at what is
I'd like to try, if possible, to give a sense of two
awareness or understanding, in that it might give some more
clarity to our mind.
In doing so I'll make a division between what we might
direct and indirect awareness. Because of this all what is
will be in-direct, or the finger pointing at the moon.
So here are two contrasted modes of being, perceiving,
understanding (it would be nice to present this side by side
form but for the moment I hope its' clear enough):
Direct: Awareness is of the moment, the now.
Indirect: Awareness is in time, past/future
Direct: Awareness is non-verbal.
Awareness is verbal, via concepts
Direct: Awareness is without self or observer
Indirect: Awareness has a self or observer outside the process
Direct: There is no actor or doer
actor or doer makes it happen
Direct: Knowing is just 'this' Indirect: Knowing is by
of an object
Direct: There is no difference or duality
There is a comparison of right and wrong.
Direct: There is no identity or clarity of form
Indirect: Identity about 'what is' is established
Direct: Silent, no word or thing
Articulated, given form, existence.
This is a tentative start, to formulate, clearly, two
modes of Consciousness. That this formulation is in 'indirect'
mode is obvious, yet, at the same time, it can never be out of
Like a tense muscle, until it is touched upon, and the
brought to light then it may not be possible to release and
relax that tension. Ease may come through awareness of
course to some extent we are our tensions, so
release may not be so easy.
Our tensions and knowing
having become a way of life, a survival strategy.
Maybe someone can help me out
by adding to my
direct/indirect comparison, or do so (directly/indirectly)
Christiana ponders http://firstname.lastname@example.org
the paradox of the warp of
perception - apperception
I was reading the below from Ramesh's new book, and
went to the NondualParent list, and recognized how
it is for mind to grok
that 'life' is a 'concept'...
particularly when life is perceived in the fullness of our children.
Life has meaning only because we can perceive
another. Perceiving of things takes place only because they
volume (in space) and duration (in time). But 'space'
and 'time' are not
something objective and substantial, but
only a notion, a concept. If
space-time is only a concept,
perceiving of things, impossible in the
space-time, must also be a concept. And, in the unreality of
perceiving, 'life' too must be a concept, and therefore,
The biggest impediment to the apperception of
is the difficulty of abandoning the concept of a live-er of life
and a die-er of death, as a factual entity. All there is, is
and die-ing, one being the absence of the other.
Living is the appearance in
space-time of the manifestation
of what-we-are, and dying is its
What-we-are is 'Unbroken Wholeness'. What-we-are can
neither live nor die.
There are three degrees of perception of
its phenomenal representation available to the human being:
a) 'Reality' perceived only by the awakened; b) the objective
universe in phenomenality; and c) the objective
universe perceived by the
human being as images and
symbols which are interpreted by him through
conceptualization by means of the sensorial apparatus of the
'Reality' is the double absence - absence of
the 'negative' representation (light and shade
in two dimensions), and the absence of the
conceptualized reproduction of the Reality.
Seeing through to the 'unbroken wholeness'
however, seems a
natural faculty of
the heart's inner lens.
~ Photos: Dustin
LindenSmith and Christiana perceiving
the paradox of "unbroken
wholeness" as Grace
incarnates Love through our daughters Zoe and Oriana.
~ Excerpts from Ramesh Balsekar's new book
The Ultimate Understanding, p.12, p.121
Bob: The efforts to be something that already is
are no different
than the efforts to live.
Wim responds: That is a very strong, true and
statement. It ties in with what I said about the distinction
between enlightenment and realization. Using your words
differently, one could say: . "what we already are" can
be seen as the seed
stage, the "patterns of what's to come"
already laid out in blue print,
preview mode so to say, within
the seed - the enlightenment stage. . "the
efforts to live" is
the dynamic of becoming tangible reality of the flower
the seed - the realization stage.
Some of you know how I distinguish enlightenment from
say it simply: enlightenment is the process of
seeing the truth - knowing
it; realization is the transformation
of that into integrative reality. I
use the word "realize" in the
meaning of "realizing one's dreams", or
"having a plan take
shape in reality".
Compare this distinction to a seed that may "know" in its
what it will look like in its flower state.
Enlightenment is like that
knowing, the actual growing into
that flower is the realization process.
process is a non-linear sequence of going from one state of
perfection to the next... With flowers there may be an end to
it or a
repeat process; with humans ... well what do we
Just keep on realizing...