As you can tell there hasn't been activity within the group over the
past few months. Yes, I use the excuse of time, but more importantly:
I've been intrigued by the idea of channeling. I've found that reading
messages 'channeled' by others is somehow banal and almost like cliches
since I started channeling my own 'guidance/higher self' or whatever one
wishes to call it.

As any rational, logic being would: yes, I've thought myself crazy for
believing in such nonsense as channeling. Yeah, it is crazy - but you
know what? It helps. It helps sitting down and reflecting over your
actions and asking questions and wherever the answers come from, they
come and they help - help you to see through to the next day and make
positive changes. Maybe this is all we were ever asked to do, maybe this
all God meant for us in the idea of having personal 'missions' and
'evolution'.

So this is why I've stopped writing articles. If you have questions
about 'spiritual' or 'metaphysical' or 'alternative' topics, use Google,
take a trip to the library or bookstore. And if you really want an
answer, a shred of relative truth - because I believe that all truth of
this world is relative to the individual - delve inside your own self.
Know thyself - that is the most important and indeed greatest thing that
one could ever achieve in this life - knowledge of themselves, to know,
truly, who the heck you really are. We keep searching for an absolute
truth, for one truth, one God, but you know what? I don't think, by the
very nature of this world and our perspectives as souls evolving on the
Earth plane, that we can know an absolute truth. Is this fair? I don't
think we can assign such terms as 'fair' and 'possible' or 'impossible'
to this idea. For an absolute truth, to know the mind of God, is, by
definition, out of reach to us. As those who found the Holy Grail were
lost to us, so too is perfection. I think that if we really want to be
egoless and fully consciousness, we must leave Earth or Earth must be
brought with us.

I think, over the past year, that I've come to a peace with myself. I
know my flaws, I know what I need to do - and whereby insanity or
guidance or whatever, I know I have help along the way to get where I
want to go. I wish I could share this peace with others, but I don't
know how to put it on paper. I would post my channelings, but as I have
already found: what is meant for you has a lesser effect on others. You
have to come to your own truth - and to do that, you need to come to
terms with yourself. No one else can do this for you. I can offer
encourage, motivation, inspiration - in fact, any spiritually-oriented
website or person can do this, but only you can know yourself. I would
urge you to share yourself with the world, but this is something I'm
working on and I would rather not preach hipocrisy.

I've found that I don't have time to pursue 'conspiracy theories' and
'alternative history'. Is this a good thing? I don't know. But one thing
I do know is that I've been a lot happier since I shifted my priorities
and I don't think that is a result of being 'absorbed into an NWO
matrix'. So what if the world is run by elites? Is there a society that
hasn't been? So what if we have corrupted governments and horrible
things happening in countries that we can't even the pronounce the names
of properly? Yeah, we should care - we should care because we are all
human and we all have our faults and most importantly: we need each
other - to change, to grow, to become more and to find out who the heck
we really are.

But do the details really matter? Do we really need the names to point
the fingers and convict and slaughter in the arena of public opinion? Is
this really going to help the problem? In the vast scale of things, in
the grander scheme of the Universe, we are but cosmic dust and even less
than that.

I've stop trying to fight the NWO or whoever you want to label as the
'elite' or 'evil' or whatever on this planet. I've found joy and an
inner peace (no, it's not perfect or completely stable), and damn it,
I'm not going to let any one take away my freedom or harm those I
love--I won't live as a sheep or like 'a leaf on the wind'--but I'm not
to going to get all angry and shake my fist at the evils or the
injustices of the world. I'll do what I can to help and that's that. I
have found that when I'm happy and I smile at those around me, that joy
is contagious. I think it is far more effective to be a 'beacon in the
horde' than a lone warrior fighting themself, fighting for a futile
cause. People will change when they want to change - you can't force any
one to evolve. You hold out your hand, but don't feel hurt or like you
failed when it isn't taken. That's freewill - and no one has the right
to stomp on it.

I hope I'm making a difference - and will continue to do so depsite my
ceasing of outside research. I encourage anyone to post on the group or
whatever reason (even just to say hi) - I mean, what's the worse that
could happen?

Live life. Take chances. You might just be happy with the outcomes! Life
never asked us to complicate it - so don't. And remember: everything you
ever needed to know, you learned in kindergarten. Share, be nice to
people, love, laugh, remember to have fun, comfort someone when they
scrape their knee, and smile back when someone says hi to you. It isn't
so difficult if we don't try to get in the way of the natural balance of
things. (Alright, so maybe it is, and I shouldn't be the one to say this
as much as I'm failing - but hey: I'm human too!)

So this sounds like some New Age fluff, but you know what? The ratio of
paranoid conspiracy theorists to New Agers ascending isn't exactly
conclusive that one way of life is better than the other. I think they
key word in all this is that isn't not a matter of whether we act or
think or be or whatever, it's that we change. Change is all God ever
asked for, right? The idea that God is evolution. All we ever need do is
change for the better - the next step in evolution.