Sorry, sorry guys.  Funny thing is that I've actually been writing.
It's amazing how much time I suddenly have to write when there's
homework to be done.

Actually, no, that's interesting.  I know that I do a lot more "fun"
stuff during the school year, leaving homework for last minute.  I
notice this because on weekends and long breaks I feel like I have
nothing to do, because the fun stuff isn't as interesting when I'm
not putting something important off.  But writing really hasn't been
categorized as a pasttime, not like Final Fantasy or mindlessly
surfing the internet.  It's always come when it's come (or just not
come, writing's like that) and there's always time for it, and it's
not a distraction, it is purpose in itself.  But here, somewhere new
(I'm at college guys, in case you didn't know) when I don't want to
do homework, I find myself writing, or at least trying to.  As a fun
distraction.  This is interesting, because it means that now I see
writing as a fun activity with which to spend my time.  Which means
that before I never thought much of it, or I guess just as something
natural and not, what, recreational or for entertainment.  Don't you
think that's interesting?

Funny that I've got four more "chapters" on that Naruto thing I
talked about in the last post.  And a whole mess of "drabbles" (short
short things) for Roy and Hughes.  I've written some other stuff,
too, but I can't think of what.

I'm particularly proud of the Naruto and FMA ones I just mentioned,
because of their chapters and continuous nature.  It may have been
said before, but I'm not the poster child for chapters or anything
long.  I know, I know, the drabbles aren't a continuous story, but
there is more than one (more than 8) and they keep coming.  That's
pretty close to having a story that gets more and more chapters.
Because it's the same topic, and I haven't exhausted it yet.  It's
wonderful.  And the Naruto one is fun because it actually is its own
story with a plot and everything!  And!  It's also humorous with no
sign of angst!  I think I'm really starting to go somewhere as a
writer...or something.  ^^

Oh, right, that's what it was, I wrote another addition to the Ryan
saga.  I actually had the dream!  And then I made it Ryan.  So, angst
there, people.  I love Ryan because he is my small tribute to Cowboy
Bebop, so he has a bright future.  In spite of the fact that he as a
character absolutely does not.  But you'd understand that if you knew
his story.

So, I might be putting this stuff up soon, or I might wait til the
Naruto one is more finished--the next chapter is being a bit
troublesome.  OH, wait.  I also wrote a whole entire "fic" about
Roy.  It started out as a drabble for the collection, but it got too
long and too Roy-centric, so it became something better.  I think
it's one of the better ones, in line with "Pathetic" and the
drabble "Fate".  It's called UNDO, after the best opeing song.  Yes,
all the drabbles are named after songs on the OSTs.  I'm glad there's
three, or else I might soon run out.  I might, anyway.  Then I'll
have to become creative, or just stop writing.  Sigh.

Well, there's your update on my progress.  I'm on a roll, and it
feels good.  If Michelle ever re-reads my re-done story, then it
might someday get up here.  Till then.

-Steph

So I was sitting there with a mind to write, and nothing to write
about.  Then suddenly I vaguely remembered a dream or pre-dream thought
from last night of some characters from Naruto trying to get into
Target, but they weren't allowed in because they were animals.  Well,
those three particular characters have like signiture animals.  So
somebody tells them they can come in as long as they don't have any
animals *with* them.  So the two say "I don't have any" at the same
time, while the third says "I don't have any in my pockets" at the same
time.  And for some reason I think that's just hilarious.

So I wrote that.  It has no point, but I suppose it's a bit funny if
you've seen Naruto.  It might continue, depends on the reviews I get
from FF.net.  Called "Tales of the Sannin."  Fanfiction.

Fact: Marshmallow peeps are disgusting.  Fact: Marshmallow peeps are
indestructible.  See peepresearch.org.

I'm not sure if I found that site before or after writing the poem.
But I do remember showing it off to my English teacher in 10th grade.
I loved that guy.  He thought I was crazy.  I wish you could see the
paper the Song of the Peeps is written on--there's three different
versions, along with some great peep drawings.  I was packing away some
papers today, and this popped out.  It definitely needed to be typed
up.  If I had to categorize it, it's from around the same time as I
wrote "Pieces" and a little after "When Tomatoes Revolt".  Yes, that
was my sophomore year.

Michelle was too busy to edit, so I'll be going over that thing a few
more times by myself until she can get to it.  I promise it'll be worth
the wait.

"In other news, I've thoughts to revive the Rebel Knight Faris
series. Y'know, "Waiting" that won 3rd at Demske this year is a part
of that. Well, the only thing ever written for that series. But
I've thoughts to write many more (yeah, that'll happen), and have
even made up a few more characters and plot points. It's exciting.
Look forward to it."

That's what I was talking about.

Let me explain.  Sometimes I have dreams that lend themselves very
well to being written as stories.  That means, they're not a big mess
of utter randomness, but a story in itself, with characters and
things that happen, otherwise known as a plot.  Some of these get
written down and never finished, like The Maiden of Landon's Point,
or that whole dumb Tatooine's Cat thing.

One day, I had a dream in which a variety of characters were
presented and oddly well-developed.  I had faces, heights,
relationships, and a little bit of background.  I also had a very
interesting adventure versus this bad guy, who, coinidentally, is a
woman.  Basically what happens in this dream is a guy in black is a
rebel, fighting against this evil lady, who's like a crazy dictator.
She, though, seems to like him.  This guy has a close friend, perhaps
a true love, a girl who wears white.  She has a brother who can't
speak--but the two are telepathic.  There's also another knight,
who's loud and brash, and he doesn't particularly like the main
knight.  So, the evil lady is evil, and starts making all the rebels
and their families leave the town. (this isn't the part the makes
sense, because everybody gets into like crates on a train with all
their luggage)  But of course something really bad happens, and it
turns out that the knight's mom has been killed by the bad guy.  Then
the other knight shows up, and guess what! That's his mom!  Wow, all
along these two were brothers!  This second knight forgets all about
disliking the other one, and hugs him, crying.  That image is so
vivid, I remember being able to feel the knight's rough coat.  It
took me a long time to realize that was the feeling of my black pea-
coat.  So, that's what the knights wear.  Wool.  Well, and then I
don't really remember the rest of the events in the dream.

But at the time I remembered enough to write down descriptions of
each character's personality, background, and appearance.  The names
I spent a while on, searching Babynames.com for meanings.  Except for
Jeffrey.  I wanted a real-sounding name, so I looked through the
phonebook.  Sorry, the real Jeffrey London, for stealing your
identity.  There were also things I had to infer myself.  The brother
and sister, they're now twins.  They're small, they come from the
family that started the revolution (I don't know if that particular
fact came from the dream or not), Jeffrey was born deaf.

Funny thing about Jeffrey, he was the least developed character of
the lot.  Most of what I know about him I made up myself.  Funny
thing, then, that the only story I had for this dream was a
completely random premise where he stands on a street corner.  He
became the one I knew the best.

So when I began to think about writing some more original stuff, I
thought back to these guys.  There's a lot of story in my mind for
them, including a fixed up version of the dream.  Funny thing, then,
when I starting thinking deeply about Faris' past, I came up with two
more characters.  Funny thing, that the next thing I write stars one
of these brand-new people, and on accident, I make up two more.

I think it's funny, considering the whole collection shall be
titled "Rebel Knight Faris", and I've nothing at all written about
him.  But at least he's *in* both of them.  Ok, now let me explain my
idea for this thing I call a collection.  I went over it a little bit
yesterday.

If all goes well, there will be a whole bunch of separate stories,
just like Waiting and Two of a Kind.  But, as I said, about the
different people in different times.  But while we see these
different things through different eyes, each story will add a piece
to a puzzle, to help you understand the world and the people in it.
If planned properly, each story can stand alone (look at Waiting's
success), but also have parts that can only be understood when read
in conjunction with another story.  Which story?  Dunno, guess you'll
just have to read them all.  With that in mind, there's quite a few
unexplained references to Allan's world and life that I don't expect
people to get.  This one that I just wrote will be the opening piece,
the introduction.  It truly is how the story starts.  But after that,
I don't think I'll have the stories go chronologically.  You read
about Allan, and then probably a present-day one about the current
group, then maybe go back a little and see how one member joined the
group, and then skip back farther and see Allan's training, then jump
ahead to Waiting.  And hopefully it would make sense.  If I have to,
I'll cement everything with dates when it's all done, but I'd rather
not.  I'd rather create a loose timeline in the reader's mind.  It
should be obvious that some things happen before or after other
things, and in other cases, it shouldn't matter.

So how does that sound?  I think it sounds like a lot of work and
planning, not two of my strong points.  But, in the light of finished
said introductory piece, I feel that there's hope.  It just might
take time.  A whoooole lot of time.  We'll see.

But, I really like Allan, and am looking forward to writing him
older, with all the kids grown up.  That seems like fun place to
write.  Mmmm, character development, oh how I have plans.

Just a note, said introductory piece is slated for editation soon, so
it isn't posted.  But I'll go and replace the Rebel Knight Faris file
with the updated one.  Go read that if you want spoilers.

Did I mention that thing that I was going to plan on writing?  I did,
believe me.  Well! I did, I did write for it!

If you go into the Files, you will find a piece called "Waiting".  It
won 3rd at Demske this spring.  And in the folder that
goes "something and Unfinished Gold" you will find a file
titled "Rebel Knight Faris."  If you've read Waiting, then you might
recognize the name Faris.  If you've read Rebel Knigt Faris, um, the
doc on my computer currently is slightly different.

I've decided, using this world and those characters, I will create an
anthology-type of novel, consisting of a mess of different stories
all put together to make a whole.  Instead of a novel, a collection
of tableaus that give you individual looks in on different people at
different times in different places that combine to make one story.
For example, that story "Waiting" will be included.  A look into
Jeffrey's mind.  The one I wrote today is the one that started it
all.  It will be the first story in the collection, and it's about a
boy named Allan Carmichael who finds a -- well, that's a surprise!
(not so much if you've read Rebel Knight Faris--which will be the
name of the collection).

I'll replace this old RKF file, as the character profile for Allan
isn't included in the old version that's here on the site.  Why?
Because I made up Allan a couple days ago.

Let me sleep now, but remind me to put up "Two of a Kind" after my
sister edits it.  And remind me to tell you how this whole Rebel
Knight Faris thing came about.

I love FF.net, for having a review function.

Ones like the one I got today just make the whole day.  The worst
review I ever got went something like "I thought this seemed
unfinished" or something.  So I finished it and asked them to read it
again ^^  Another person reviewed saying they especially liked the
ending, so I guess I did good.

And I hate you guys, for ignoring the comments database!!  Nah, just
kidding.  ^___^  But it is there and waiting for you.  ^^  It's also
quite empty.  0 entries.

I like having this big library type thing where all my writings can
be accessed, but I guess I also feel like it's a bit pointless when
nobody accesses them.  Or when I write my feelings on writing, also
for no one to read.

Well, I know at least one of you gets them sent to your inbox, and
that's nice.  And I know there's an awful lot of random stuff shoved
into the Files, and that it's a lot to ask one to read.  And I guess
I shouldn't be complaining about nothing, but it's how I feel.

I want people to read what I write.  I guess I just gotta find an
appropriate audience.  FF.net is great because of categories--you
look for what you want to read and that's that.  But when it's
original work, you don't know what your in for.

Like Naruto, I just want to be acknowledged by the whole village.  I
want to be noticed for it, be given attention.  Out of all the things
I do in life, I feel that my best skill is in writing.  And to put
energy into it, to perfect it little by little, and have it be mostly
ignored by people close to me, it just makes all that work feel a
little pointless.  People say, so, what did you do today?  Oh, I did
some writing.  And then there's always a stare, like they're
thinking, why didn't you do something useful?

I want to tell stories.  I want to show people my perspectives, new
perspectives, old perspectives in creative ways.  I want to
entertain, to teach.  I want to play with emotions.  I want to take
people for a ride.  I want to point out and say "this here is a part
of Stephanie's mind that no one else has ever seen. would you like to
take a look?"  And I want to be good at it.  I want to be creative
and original.  I want to be interesting.  I want to write what I want
and have people still be interested.  I want to write for people.  I
want fans.  I want people to say, "that's Stephanie, she may be
quiet, but her mind's just going crazy all the time. she's an awful
good writer."

I know I'm not good *all* the time, and that there are some things
that some people just don't want to read.  I don't want to force
people to read my stuff.  I want the one story they're interested in
to be good enough to make them want to explore the others.  It'd just
be nice that instead of saying, "hey, have you read my new fic yet?"
I'd rather have someone come up to me saying, "y'know, that one story
was pretty good."  Or even, "y'know, that one story was alright, but
the flow could have been improved."

People on FF.net have betas.  I've never had someone read a thing
before it was "done".  No one's wanted to.  And if I were to ask
someone to read something critically, I'm sure I would feel like I'm
intruding or being a nuisance.  And I know I'd probably ignore at
least half of the comments, preferring my "style" to strict
correctness.

Weeeelll, I don't know why I'm ranting.  Sometimes it's good to get
things out, y'know?  And I feel sorta bad for ranting in media only
seen by people who profess to reading my stuff, but I know that 80%
of the members here will never see this, so it makes me feel a bit
better.

That's entirely strange, isn't it?

In any case, the story today is another fanfic (sorry! I'll write
something original everyone can understand soon!) from the manga
Tsubasa Reservoir Chronicle.  Or the anime Tsubasa Chronicle.  But
the manga's better.

And if you don't know what the term shounen-ai is (or if you do and
you don't like it), I encourage you *not* to read it.  But I'm
uploading it because this is the place where everything goes.  The
manga is by CLAMP, and if you know what I'm talking about, then you
probably know that I can't help but write shounen-ai from a CLAMP
work.

Tis called "I May Not Like the Guy, But..."  and is a one-sided
FaiKuro from Kurogane's pov.  Pretty long, too.  I'm surprised that I
wrote it all in one day.  I don't think the beginning is very good,
but I really like the ending.  Angsty.  Yay.  The picture that
started it all is in the Photos.

It seems I've overcome the road(writer's)block, and am back into the
swing of things.  To accentuate my point, I present to you another
Samurai Champloo fic for your viewing pleasure.

Hm.  I'm sure I've said that before.  I must work on new stuff.

Um, also, I will alert you to spoilers if you care to read the new
one.  I'm about to discuss how it came about to have certain
important plot points in it.  Oh, and this one today is
entitled "Crush".




In a lovely review I got for Glad to See Ya, the reviewer said that I
could write any pairing for the show (the example given was Jin and
Momo. Momo is a flying squirrel.) and she would read it.  So.  I was
up to that challenge.  And Carolyn had the brilliant idea to disguise
it as a Jin/Fuu fic (Fuu is the girl of the group) and then trick 'em
all and the "she" would be Momo-chan at the end.

Well, that's what I set out to do, but in the end literary merit won
out over randomness.  I set it up so that you'd think Jin might like
Fuu, and then a few paragraphs in, I was like, hey, why should they
think it's just Fuu?  Why not make it completely unknown, and they'll
be thinking "is it Fuu?  Is it Mugen?" the whole time until the end
and it will have been Momo the whole time.  So it sounds serious all
along until it turns into a crack fic.  But then it struck me, why
put a name in the end at all?  I'll just be upsetting/disappointing
the Jin/Fuu fans AND the Jin/Mugen fans.  And, in my opinion, what I
had written so far had a nice feel to it that wasn't funny at all.
So.  It turned into romance/angst.  And you still don't know who Jin
is crushing on in the end.  If you want it to be Fuu, it can be Fuu.
If you want it to be Mugen, it can be Mugen.

But of course I know it's really Momo.





</end spoilers>

I'm waiting for fan responses, now.  Well, no one's had the chance to
read it, 'cause I wrote and posted it at FF.net a little before 1
this morning.  Funny, by date it was written today, but it was
totally written in the mindset of yesterday.

Yesterday I was going to write!  But, looks like I failed if the only
thing that got done was finished in the wee hours of today.  Still,
that's more points for Thursday.

In other news, I've thoughts to revive the Rebel Knight Faris
series.  Y'know, "Waiting" that won 3rd at Demske this year is a part
of that.  Well, the only thing ever written for that series.  But
I've thoughts to write many more (yeah, that'll happen), and have
even made up a few more characters and plot points.  It's exciting.
Look forward to it.

Hooray for anime.

When a show ends, you're always like, gee, I wish it would keep
going.  I wish I could watch the characters interact and have
adventures.  I wish there was *more*.

Unless, of course, the show wasn't so great to begin with, or if
all/most of the characters die by the end.

My favorite thing about any story, be it literature, anime, or movie,
etc, are the characters.  They become like real people in my mind
that I have real interest and emotion about.  When a show ends, it's
like, how dare you take my friends away from me!  There's always a
part of me that wants to see these people live on.

So when Jacqi started telling me about how she'd finished Samurai
Champloo, and how she wished it didn't end, my response was "there's
always fanfiction."  Because, when you get down to it, I write
fanfiction in order to give those characters another chance to show
off their stuff.  'Course, it's also for other fans, 'cause I like to
throw in tons of references and inside jokes that a fan would
appreciate.  That's also why I try to stay in character as much as
possible.  I don't want to read about the exploits of my favorite
character when the characterization is so bad he seems like a
completely different person.

Writing fanfiction is challenging, because there's so many external
guidelines one must adhere to.  That's what makes it so fun, and
makes the finished work something to be proud of.

So, in the effort to help Jacqi feel like it wasn't totally over, I
set about to craft a Samurai Champloo fic.  Technically, I guess it
was Jackameridio work, 'cause I asked her what she wanted to happen
in it, but all I got was "make it funny" and "about Mugen".  Well.

It's not entirely about Mugen, and it's not entirely funny, but I did
try.  Heck, I *finished* it, so that's praiseworthy in itself.
Turned out to be a lot of fun, even if I hadn't seen the show in a
while, trying to make them say and do things that I believe Mugen and
Jin and Fuu would say and do.  But Momo-chan was the best.  ^__^

I suppose that's enough of an intro, so.  The new writing is a fanfic
based on the anime Samurai Champloo, and is entitled "Glad to See You
Again--No, Wait, I'm Not".  It's a crack attempt at humor, but I'm
appreciating the prodding of Jacqi to make me write it.  Every little
bit helps, I think.  I'd like to take this moment to babble something
about practicing.  I guess I can't just write angst all my life.

SO!  Go read it!  Or not!  Because you likely haven't ever heard of
Samurai Champloo!  It might not make so much sense!  BUT!  It IS the
first thing I've written in a while, and that makes it special.  ^_~

Y'know, one of these days I should write something.

There's been too much creative input since I started Naruto, limiting
the creative output.  In my opinion.  See, there's 145 eps of Naruto
out, 17 of Tsubasa Chronicle, and 45 of Bleach, and now I've seen
every one and am waiting for the new ep ever Wednesday and Thursday.
That's a lot of anime I've been watching.  I reeeeaaaallly ought to
write some fanfiction, at least, but I'm too interested in what's
actually happening to make up something of my own.  Well, I did do a
Jiraiya x Iruka "thing" for a friend, but that doesn't count.

And as for original stuff.... even my dreams have been about ninja
and shinigami, so anything bubbling up from my infinite resources of
creativity is being blended into anime.

I guess I'm just being in an audience phase.

Oh yeah, my movie.  The closest I got to writing was my movie, but
that's not going to go any farther than it is because I don't know
how to make lava.  And it's stopped being cloudy, so I can't film
outside or else the "puppeteer's" shadows would show up on camera.
Perhaps I shall turn it into a fanfic of sorts --heck, it'd be an
original idea if I just change the titles and the names of the
characters.  So that might happen.  Prolly won't.

Well.........  we'll see what happens.

I ran out of Naruto, so it was back to writing for me XD

Not anything epic, or really that good, but I felt that it was
finished, so I put it up.  FMA fic.... although it could have made just
as much sense with any other two characters possible.
Called "Harmony", 'cause, y'know, it was an FMA fic and needed an FMA
OST name.  *Incredibly* short.  The fic, I mean, not the title.

Perhaps there will be Naruto ficcage in the future, but I doubt it.
It's a plain great show, but I'm not feeling the writing bug.  Just the
watching bug.  It's a disease.  It's a bug that feeds off my chakra.
BUT none of you would know anything about that, now would you.

I wish I had chakra.  Then Kakashi-sensei could come over and teach me
all kinds of cool jutsu.  And the chidori.  But, then again, none of
you would know anything about that, now would you.

Beware Kakashi-based fics, if I ever do get around to it, though.

But really, I haven't written anything.  I know, I know, bad Steph.  But
I've been too busy watching/searching for Naruto that I've really had
nothing else on my mind.  Perhaps some ideas/fanfics will arise from
this new obsession.

I post to inform you all of a new database thingie.  For comments.  For
flames.  For feedback.  So, if you felt like it, you could actually tell
me what you think using a fairly simple process.  It's a database, so
you fill out the stuff that goes under the categories of Re: Story:,
Comments:, and From:.  The first is for the title of what you're talking
about, and I would hope the other two are self-explanatory.

Umm... if you're wanting to comment about more than one thing at a time,
go ahead and type in all the titles, or if that's not doable, put
something there that makes sense.  I guess.

I suppose I'll try to get back to work and churn out something new for
you all to ignore.  XD

My seventh and perhaps worst of FMA fics has arrived today, completing a
week of random writing.

This one I like to think is for Jennifer.  That is, When I was showing
her my Hughes/Roy doujinshi, she was showing me her Roy/Hawkeye
doujinshi, and it was like a fight.  She agreed that a fic of them
fighting over Roy would be cute.

Well, if you want to think it's cute, go ahead.  If you want to think
it's funny, go ahead.  Because I tried, but it was a little forced
today.  I get the feeling that I was only trying to make a week of fics,
to be impressive, and unless another good idea comes to me in my sleep,
this might possibly be my last FMA fic for a while or even forever.

Well, now that I say that, it will be.  But we'll see.

Since I ran out of song titles that fit, this one is called "Heart of
Metal", and I shamelessly worked that phrase in there so it would fit.
Yeah, I guess I didn't try so hard today.

...then lately I've been living a very successful life.

The Fullmetal Alchemist fic-o-day is entitled "Warmth", and, oddly
enough, is Royai, which means the main pairing is Roy Mustang and Riza
Hawkeye.  So much for Hughes/Roy.  That just didn't work out very well.

This one is more upbeat, more about the lazy dog Mustang is, rather than
the haunted soldier.  I like it.  Better than the other Royai one. I am
proud of it.

I called Mustang "Mustang taisa",  but Hawkeye was just "Lieutenant".  I
hope that doesn't confuse anybody.  Taisa is his rank, colonel.
But "first lieutenant" in Japanese is Joui, which is hard to read in
romaji like it is there.  So.  I like how when I looked it up I ended up
just reading/translating the conversations between Hughes and Roy.
Scieszka says a lot of "there's a phone call from [X]."  I am proud of
my Japanese skillz.

Which makes me five by five, or something.

The FMA fic of today is called "Favorite Daughter", and is conveniently
located in the Fanfiction section of our program.  I mean Files.

Hughes and Roy!  Devoid of shounen-ai!  Humorous and set in-series!
Not previously planned!

And someone reviewed Memories, so I went to look at their profile, and
when I looked at their favorite stories, the one there was a collection
of drabbles "themed by the titles of the first FMA soundtrack".  Geez,
and I thought I was being original or something.

I'm interested to see how long this writing streak keeps up.  I mean,
there's only so many things you can write about the same two
characters, right?  But it is indeed fun.

So, I still haven't decided whether or not to give that dumb long piece
of junk a chance.

In the meanwhiles, please to be reading my new fic, "Memories".  Please
do not to be reading if you plan on seeing the show.  I must warn of
spoilers.  Same goes for, y'know, like most of the fanfiction there.

I like this one today.  Better than yesterday's.  Oh, which is
called "Beaming Sunlight".  So this one actually has a hint of shounen-
ai!  Finally!  Well, a line or two.  I'm not sure where the idea came
from.  But I'm glad I wrote it.

I wonder how many more short ones I'll wake up and write.  I've got one
a day for the past 4 days.  I guess we'll just have to wait and see.

And then we'll see if I ever get around to *anything* I've planned.

I hate it.

At least, I think it's done.  All the parts fit into each other now.  I
just don't have the willpower right now to force myself all the way
through it.  I don't really even want to upload it.  It's just not a
good piece of work.  Strained and uninspired and actually overdone and
just dumb.

It's dumb.

I'm sad that it didn't turn out better.  I'm sad somebody didn't tell me
not to write it.

So.  I think it's no good to have lists of things you want to write.
It doesn't work.  Out of my 4 planned FMA fics, one was attempted and
is all but dead, and two were written but without their main planned
elements.  And then there's just another one that came out of
nowhere, leaving the last planned one untouched.

Oh, sorry, I didn't say.  I wrote another pager of a fic.
Hawkeye/Roy.  Ish.  Actually, I like this one, 'cause I'll probably
still be able to fit in my other ideas in a sort of sequel.  Er, but
it would be entirely unrelated.  So it might not happen.

Here, let's make a chart:

Hughes likes Roy -- failure
Roy fixes glasses with shounen-ai -- changed
Riza helping Hospital!Roy -- changed
Hughes fighting Riza for Roy -- unattempted

instead what we have written are these:
Roy fixes glasses
Roy hates the war
Riza helping Hospital!Roy


Ok, when I first envisioned a Roy/Hawkeye fic, it was going to be Roy
revealing to her his thoughts on Hughes after she asks "Am I your
second choice?" (because I think she is ;p )  And Roy would bring up
stuff that happened in that failure of a fic that I really don't want
to mention.

Now, if you go to the Fanfiction section and read the new Hawkeye-
centric fic there, you will find none of said envisioned content.
That's all I have to say.

Yes, I did it again.

Two lines came to me as I woke up, and I had to write the whole dang
thing out.

Yeah, it's under Fanfiction.  It's the one called "Pathetic".

Man, I've really got to get back to work now ;p

Now there's some writing for ya.

I spend all this time and effort into this one fic, saying, I really
wanna get this one done!  This one's really important!  And then I go
a blow it off and write a completely unrelated drabble in half an
hour.

Man, it feels good to write again.

So, somehow managing to have zero shounen-ai in it, I proudly present
to you my first completed FMA fic, "The Atonement".  It's the one I
mentioned about...well, that would ruin it.  You should really just
read it.

The title is the title of track 19, 'cause I figure I'll name all my
FMA fics after the song titles.

Speaking of that horrible horrible long one, I did actually write on
it today.  All it needs is the middle section and the very end,
which, in my mind, is all written out.

So, I'll come back from my writing break, and, y'know, write.  Or
something.

So I go days and days of writing a few paragraphs per sitting, and
then all of a sudden today, WHOOSH the floodgates open and I find
myself with three shiny new pages.  All of which, I might add, are in
the middle section.  Which leaves half of a small scene and the
entire bar scene, and polishing/finishing of the final scene.  But
that part I wrote today was giving me grief as a major even that just
wasn't down on paper and was seeming to plan on staying that way.
Especially distressing was the fact that that scene is basically the
reason I thought up/felt like writing the story in the first place.
So I'm glad I finally wrote it.

The really funny thing is that now I have just over 8 pages on this
thing, and I don't remember writing that much.  It makes me feel good
to look over the print preview and think that just a few days ago
none of that existed.  It makes me feel acomplished.  Now if only it
were all good and impressive writing, then I'd really be somewhere.

I also have decided to name the different section/scenes after songs
on the FMA soundtrack, 'cause I'm funny like that.  So the part I
just wrote is called Taboo.  Next I will work on Avenue.  But not
today.  I mean, right now.  Because today is Monday, but I still have
to sleep up for it.

Still sloshing through that dumb idea otherwise known as that
Hughes/Roy thing.  I've found that if I go and let my mind wander, I
come up with better things than if I sit and force myself to write.
The hard part is not falling asleep while searching for inspiration.

Man, the fangirls had BETTER like this when it's done.

AT the time, I also forgot to mention that I was planning on doing that
challenge I got from that one person.  And I feel like I wrote that
last thing so long ago, but it must have been within the last 5 days.
Sorta creepy.

I'd also like to ad to "working on" a shounen-ai FMA fic set pre-series
entitled "Trying Not to Love Him".  Seriously.  Much of it is done-
ish.  AND it's not even going to be the one with the glasses, so expect
that sometime, too.

I need to be busy, now.  Back to work.

I am

working on...
      Legacy Collector for Melissa

planning...
      that story about the twins and the mirror
      Hughes v. Hawkeye
      Some cute FMA story involving Roy fixing Hughes' glasses with
alchemy...expect shounen-ai.
      I guess some RoyxHawkeye thing for Ed and Riza.

Yeah, those last three are fanfics for Fullmetal Alchemist, because
that's what my dreams are about after living at the AX all weekend.

Because I've uploaded 86 things since last Monday.  When it says "new
stuff", it really means, "stuff that's been new for exactly a week or
less".

SO.  I wrote today.  Nothing that I was expecting to write, but I like
it all the same.  Still gotta do that Bourne thing and finish Legacy
Collector.  The new thing is called hoshi wa kibishii desu.  I think
I'll put it in the Anthology.

So, 87 new files for the next hour.

Unless you consider watching anime and deciding that the writers of
Spiral are geniuses actual writing, then no, I did no such thing the
past few days.  ::Author's note: Watch Spiral, it makes you smarter::

BUT I got a really cool review the other day!  All my fanfiction here
is posted at Fanfiction.net, and the reviews you get there are
emailed to you all cool and I always get a little giddy when I see
I've got a new one.  This was for Extreme Ways, the Bourne Supremacy
fic:

Aya-kun Rose,

The following review has been submitted to: Extreme Ways Chapter: 1

From: Maureen ()

That was amazing!  This is my favorite scene in the movie and I think
you captured the emotion well.  I'd love to see you do the same from
Bourne's POV.

Well done!



Challenge!  Bourne's POV?  It'd be easy because I already have all
the dialogue copied down, and I know the scene pretty well, and I'm
sure I could just lift sections out of Extreme Ways.

Challenging:  What is Bourne doing before he gets to her?  After?
What is he thinking then?  Seeing?  Where is he?  I did Nicky because
that's what the audience sees.  What she sees is what the audience
sees.  I'd have to go and make reasonable inferences on Bourne's
location based on previous and following scenes.  And there's also
his thoughts.  Are they lucid?  Disjointed?  I'd lean towards being
pretty clear and focused because he is Jason Bourne, assassin.  But
does he think of Marie?  Or is he trying to clear his mind of her for
the duty ahead?

I guess I should say that if you haven't seen the movie yet, you
really shouldn't read this, as it's a pretty crucial scene.  Um, and
also if you don't like intense stuff.

But I think this challenge will be fun.

Spent the rest of last night typing things up, turns out.  And part of
today doing that, too.  I'm probably going to get carpal tunnel after
all that.  I've been meaning to comment on some ideas I've had, but
I've forgotten what they are.

Wrote a flash fiction today.  Entered it in the Poewar.com thing.  It's
also here.  "Freedom Fight".

I guess it's back to watching ZIM now.  Or, y'know, writing or
something.

Well then.  I *think* I've finally uploaded everything on my computer.
Now it's time to type.  And, y'know, write new stuff.  Don't know what
I'll do first, type up stuff or work on Legacy Collector.

Speaking of working on stuff.  I created a folder for unfinished things
today.  They are all likely to remain that way unless I get some
interest in them.  So if anything strikes your fancy, prod me until I
get back to work on it, k?

It isn't as serious as it sounds.  Promise.

I only have a half-hour left to tell you what I did today.  But
that's ok, I didn't do that much--but I DID actually write some.

Being bored the other day and feeling that writing was a fun thing to
do, I told my friend that I'd write a story for her.  After some
prodding, she said she'd want to be written as an Indiana Jones or
that girl from Relic Hunter.  Yeah, Relic Hunter.  Yeah, I had to
look it up, too.  SO I was finally thinking about it last night and
came up with some good ideas and as of now have a page and a half
written.  Here is the beginning:

LEGACY COLLECTOR

Catacombs—somewhere in EUROPE

	 The flickering light from a torch glows faintly in the
underground tunnels.  It grows steadily brighter, illuminating the
damp rough walls and sheets of cobwebs.  Then the flame itself comes
around a corner, followed by the arm that holds it out in front of
the torchbearer herself.  She wears the outfit of an adventurer, an
explorer.  As she makes her way carefully over the ancient ground, a
second torch comes into view, lighting up the words printed in pink
across the back of her jacket:

	 Melissa Beach, Legacy Collector.

	 The second torchbearer seems out of place in the solemn
oldness of the catacombs.  Her hair is long and wild, kept somewhat
in place by the strap of the night vision goggles attached to her
face.  She carries a plethora of gear with her, on her belt, in an
oversized pack.  Some of it looks normal enough, like the unused
flashlight or the GPS unit.  But then there's the rest of it,
indescribable boxes and wires and blinking lights, all tagged with
the little printed label "Property of Jacqi Dillon, PI.  (Paranormal
Investigator)".

How's that for punctuation wrangling there at the end, eh?  I threw
in my friend Jacqi, too.  She makes a good paranormal investigator
type of sidekick.

Oh, right, what this has to do with Jackameridio.  Well, the name is
too confusing to explain, so I'll do that another time.  It's my name
for something along the lines of freelance fiction.  Personalized.
You tell me what you want in your story, I'll write it.  Donations
are accepted.  Girl's gotta make a living somehow.  So, at the end of
this long-winded story, Status: Closed means don't ask me to write
anything for you, I'm busy on someone else's.

I've uploaded everything that's finished and worth reading.  But no
actual writing done today.  Next on the list is to type up decent
things that...aren't typed up yet.  Or finish things that are ok.  Or
write something new.  But not today.  Oh no, not today.  Why?  I just
tried to spell today with an h.  And that's a darn good reason to sleep.

To start off, I didn't write anything today.  But that's alright.  I
made this group thingie.  Still working on uploading anything of value,
but as of now the poetry and anthology sections are filled.  Gotta
think about formatting the Fanfiction bit and the randomness that is
the rest of it.  Don't know what other special sections I'll need.
Back to work, I guess.