Hey Tes,

I totally agree with you. You may be on to something with the SAD
stuff. I know that I feel worse during the winter months. I also
get more lows when I don't get enough time with other people. It's
hard to fix their problems when I don't see them. Then I just have
to focus on my own problems...that's enough to depress anyone! But
really, my life is pretty good and compared to some I really
shouldn't have anything to gripe about, but I do it anyway. I guess
it is the same for everyone, and the "starving kids in China" are
always there to make even our meals something to be upset about.
I'm not trying to put myself on a pedestal or anything, but I think
that when a person feels so much for so many creatures it just can't
help but depress them at times. There is so much that can't be done
and so much that needs to be done and so many choices to make that
it makes it almost impossible to make one. At least that is the way
it is for me. I wake up in the middle of the night and write long
streams of consciousness about random topics and then I shake to the
core when I read them the next day, week or month. You all should
try it sometime when you are really tired. Amazing what you find
out about the way you think and what you think. Just like taking
LSD, be prepared for what you will find out about yourself cuz it
can be a life changing event at times.

The verbal vomit is a flowing so I better cap this one off for now.
Thanks for the well wishing and concern from all. It's good to be
on the receiving end of the caring and concern.

Love to you all in as many forms as the world has to offer,
-Heather

--- In SEU-SupportGroup@yahoogroups.com, "tesla_42" <tesla_42@...>
wrote:
>
>
> Hi Heather,
> I'm sad to hear about Your Family; I don't
> think I'll ever be resigned to Dying.
> I Love Life so much!
> I learned something about Myself while taking
> classes last year.
> I like chaos, it's My Comfort Zone.
> I always say I like ruts, but truthfully, I'm Happiest
> when things are crazy.
> I like pacifying, settling things, straightening them out.
> I could understand Someone being 'addicted' to stress.
> spending Time outdoors is always beneficial, I think.
> I am affected by SAD, winter sucks for Me.
> now that the days are longer, I am feeling stronger.
> but in the middle of Winter, I have to force Myself to stay moving.
> Love,
> tesla
> btw, Good to see You here
>
>
> -------Original Message-------
>
> From: SEU-SupportGroup@yahoogroups.com
> Date: 04/02/06 18:53:17
> To: SEU-SupportGroup@yahoogroups.com
> Subject: Re: [SEU-SupportGroup] Putting On Help Cap...
>
> Hey Lonnie,
>
> Let me tell you, this has been a tough couple of years. Everyone
around me
> is dying...literally. I have had several close family members die
in the
> past two years and I have a couple right now with terminal
cancer. I am the
> helpful one in the family so I always do everything for
everyone.....except
> me. You know, those do gooder types who know how to juggle 10
plates at
> once.. yep that's me. Sadly, though, I go through manic and
depressive
> cycles, though I am not clinically bipolar I think I am pretty
close at
> times. I have two teenage girls who need constant attention as
well as
> assisting other family members with whatever crisis they walk
themselves
> into. Sometimes I think that I am addicted to stress... could
that be?
> Really, I'm not kidding, I love the adrenaline rush of having to
solve
> things quickly. Too much stress as a kid and now I just don't feel
> comfortable without it I guess. So when things get to calm here I
look to
> help everyone else. My degree in Psychology helps quite a deal
and people
> just seem to gravitate to me. Hopefully I'm not scaring anyone
with my
> perceived psychosis. :-) Don't worry I am as gentle as a lamb.
>
> Anyway, bad things are supposed to come in threes I hear so
perhaps mine are
> beginning to wind down...we can only hope. Until then I have to
make time
> to meditate and spend time outdoors now that the weather is
better. That
> always helps. For now I am in tip top shape and things are much
better.
> Thank you so much for asking.
>
> May happiness wash over you in times of despair,
>
>
>
>
>
>
>
> -Heather
>
> Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do
are in
> harmony.
> -Mahatma Gandhi
>
> "Non-violence leads to the highest ethics, which is the goal of all
> evolution. Until we stop harming all other living beings, we are
still
> savages."
> Thomas A. Edison (1847-1931)
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