hi,  i am new to group, i have adopted twins from ethiopia both with RAD, one is
very severe,  I could use the support right now, i feel i am about ready to fall
off the ladder
Bonnie

Hi, my name is Aleigh.  I'm the bio mom of a 7 year old daughter and I'm just
having a rough time lately. Tears are running down my face as i write this.  I
just can't handle her anymore.  I feel so hopeless.  Nothing seems to work.  She
destoyed her room yesterday by coloring all over EVERY wall with crayon doing
math problems and drawing animals.  Everyday it seems to get worse and worse. 
My husband, who is not her dad, has been in her life since she was 7 months old,
hates her.  Literally hates her.  Honestly, I don't blame him.  I'm her mom and
I don't like my own kid.  I feel horrible saying that, I feel horrible thinking
that, but it's the truth.  I don't know what to do anymore.  She had a great
therapist who left, and the new one is pretty much useless.  I've been trying to
find a new specialist but I'm having such a hard time finding anyone within a
reasonable distance.  I'm just so tired of being so sick and tired.  I'm on the
verge of giving her to her bio dad, who I have a restaining order against
because I don't know what else to do.  i guess I'm just looking for some support
and any advice I can get.  Thanks for listening